Saturday, November 25, 2006

one gone, many more came! merrier merrier...!

I want to be early again cuz i'm never.
I want to be social and i hope i culd.
I want to be happy and i better be!

It's gg to be tough but i'm gg to have to try. Change for the better...!

Life for me will change if he ever comes back. No more nite outings. [SIGH]
So unfair yet so fair. [whyyyy]

OK. so Hw do i say.. how do i tell.. how shld i begin.. [help! i need somebody]

Uncle Colin [oh no. SIRE LORD MAJESTY Colin i meant] is awesome. Transfort fee saviour. [hahahah.]
Dinner with them also AWESOME.

Everything is AWESOME rite now. New guys to GAWK at.

And since i'm surrounded by ppl who can or soon to drive, i want to drive too! bahhhhhhhh.
I need a job. but how, when i dun even bother hunting for one? [gahhhhh]

Few people has changed. They're different now. But Whatever. Couldnt be bothered! I'm Happy! [i think] Suddenly i feel so happy and i dun noe why! so hyper! woooooooooooooooo!

ok. gg nuts here.

OH OH! more people turning gayer and gayer. [i dun think i'm one of them] - [but even if i am, den... so what!] hahahaha. ok really gg nuts. ARGH!

ok not so hyper now. boooooooooo.

Mmairah said sth at....:12:25 AM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

~~Sometimes i lie awake thinking if i am invisible. Am i? Sigh. What a wonderful world ahead of me, i see it. But i'm not included in it. now tht sucks.~~

screw Tht.

I wonder why certain people popped up in my life.. it culd get real annoying too.. when they dun noe they're bein treated nice-r than they shld be. Even though i hate everyone, i still appreciate them in many ways. Cuz they're the ones tht either make me or break me. n now they're all like.. POOF!

I think it's funny, tht people think they noe me but the truth is they dun. I noe it's my fault for living in pretense but people need to learn tht they shldnt believe in whatever others tell them. Just like i would love to believe ur life's so crapped up but still u have a home.

But i do believe tht no two person face the same problems in life. Everyone is different. so live with it and dun start blabbering tht i wont understand what ur effing life is all about. DUH. Like dudesssssssss and dudettessssss if u noe like others wun understand u, why bother wasting ur breath gg on and on about how pathetic and miserable they are.

ok to think about it.. now it feels really annoying and irritating thinking about those people. urgh.

I think i just have to let ppl, whoever IS reading tht.. everyday i have a different ME. so right now.. i'm the fed-up, annoyed and care-less ME! so bug off.

ps: Adalia Jillian Frances [i had to say ur full name cuz u're such a TOOT, not like u're reading anyways. HEH] had her fun! boohoo! u byotch! hahhahahha!

Mmairah said sth at....:11:48 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

First and foremost i'd like to say i have not been online for like ancient! goodness.. The connection i'm using from? doesnt like me anymore. :C i've gone MIA!

Like how i've been tattling to Marilyn, yes i'm back from Bahamas!! if u guys didnt noe, i was on an imaginary trip. Bahamas was great and everything and next stop is Bermuda Triangle. [wad a joke. HA HA HA]

OKOK honestly i've been busy studying. yes, u've gt me right. STUDYING. ohh wait i forgot "studying". have been gg all the way to changi airport, supposedly to study. i shan't go any further into details cuz it's obvious when i said "studying". [i'm like repeating the word - studying - ANNOYING]

So Ian i've checked out ur blog. one word - awesome [heh]
And Marilyn, i've checked urs too. same ol' same ol' but better. Only tht ur font is gg to make me blind.

Mum isnt too pleased with me lately. [or has it been, always?] anyhoos who wuldnt, when i'm home only close to midnight. my bad. Sorry mum. and i'll kill Dad for you. Bastard. =)

Finally i had dinner with the lovely bitches. Still the same ol' them. Awesome. [kinda backdated]

I, for once wanna noe, Does smoking affects ur memory?! cuz my memory is sure.. bad recently. If u asked me to repeat wad i'd said in the past 3 mins, i wuldnt and culdnt possiby rmb. and tht's DAMN bad. think it's karma or retribution or whatever u call it. [for saying kellie's memory's bad]

And why does it seemed like there's nth for me to blog when there's actually alot? i'm getting weirder and weirder as time passes by. urgh.

OOOOOOOOH. and it's been quite awhile since i've last gone home with my darling, pam. DARLING, DARLING! when it's back to normal skool days, i'll call u up!

And i do not know if i cant wait to have the newest episode of.... [what show was it tht my bro's gf was burning for me....? hmm] i think it's oc. urgh. i cant rmb!!!! great.

so lately, i've stopped thinking about life. which makes me stop being suicidal. [for now] [oh. and i'm not self-suicidal, whatever tht's supposed to mean]

and it seems like i'm gg on and on and on, gibberish, yakidee-yakidee-yak about nothing but utter nonsense.

Goodness gracious me.. it's 6 am in the morning! mum's gonna scream her head off! [den it'll be scary. having a headless mum]
And i think i'm taking too long to post. Before My connection goes awry i better make a move.

With these few words below, i marked my exit.

with every puff
it seemed to cuff
like golden shackles
around the ankles

*toodles!

Mmairah said sth at....:5:25 AM