Sunday, August 13, 2006

Wow. I'm back, to blog. [Hahhh] Not to say there's anything exciting. But all, so very sad and miserable. Yes, many things had come and go, just like the people in my life. To my beloved granddad, u will always be in my loving memory. Right now, I can feel ur presence is a miss as I'm sitting at ur very own room.

So I was high and barfed a lot on friday. But I felt much gratitude to the two of them, Marilyn and Ian. [Told u guys I cant take much alcohol content. I said "more sprite!" hahha] If it weren't for them, I wuld be slping on the very grass of "esplanade" or even better the corridor to the toilet of esplanade. [Hahha. Yes, of course I felt like an idiot and WAS an idiot] Everyone was looking… So annoying……… but the fireworks wasn't any great either. Just very bland and normal… well I figured. I felt damn hippie for a moment… sitting in a huge open field… the only thing tht was a miss is weed, marijuana and whatnot. But I guess sampoerna is good enuff, innit? [Hehh]

Much thnks to Marilyn and Ian for lending me ur laps for me to slp, ur time wasted and patience, waiting for me [cuz I kept saying "gimme 5 more mins" which in time turned 1 hr +++], ur support for trying to make me walk straight, to Marilyn for the trouble u have to carry my stuffs, to Ian for piggybacking me [although u kinda sucked, even Marilyn's better at it, still, much cherished] and ur kindnesses was much much appreciated. And I NOE I talked a lot of crap. [Hahaha. Well who wuldnt?] – This feels like I'm taking a Grammy award or sth. With all the "thnks". [Hahhahha]

I do not think tht this year is a great year for me. 3 people left me. [Well, literally.] My dad, who rather leave his family behind with so much burden for us to weigh. [Fuck u bitch] My aunt, whom passed away in May. My granddad, who very recently passed. It's been a very busy week for me. Ever since he left this world, I was running here and there preparing for the funeral and prayers, accompanying my aunt so she wuldnt be alone… friday has been my last day of work… back to skool tmr. So excited yet too exhausted. And I'm back here in my aunt's place… I think my daily routine will change from now. For better or for worst, I do not noe. I think it'll be… gg to my aunt's place at nite… waking up in the morning to go back to my place [I hope I culd jog home, so it will do me good, hehh] and den to skool… if I have a job… den I wuld just have to fit it in my scheduled routine…and den back to repeat the cycle again…

Well.. Time to make the cycle happen! ........

Mmairah said sth at....:10:28 AM