Monday, May 29, 2006

ok the drum set sucks. n the security guard is such a bitch.

so we took a break and went out of the skool to fag.. a police stopped by to screen. wahlau. the second time i got into this... [or was it the third?] sudden feeling of fear instantly cropped up. they were like "smoking ah? u working here?" blablablayadayada n didnt have my ic with me.. the yaya newbie lady police act so yaya-ly fierce.waaaaaa i've gt to admit.. i was scared for the moment tht they might just call my hse later on. but they said they're looking on for hp theft.. although they didnt ask for no.. they culd always track dwn.. [isnt tht their past-time? tracking]

wanted to go to al-ameen. but marilyn being the fickle impulsive her.. suddenly stop the driver at prata cafe instead. speakin of which...i feel like eating french prata NOW! hahahahhaaha.

crashed at marilyn's place for a bit. nap-ped for a bit. drool-ed all over [joshin!].WAAAAAAAAAAA and she cooked! maggie mee....

watched napolean dynamite for like the third time. i dun even noe y i made myself watched it for the third time. "Freakin Idiot"seriously after u watch tht show.. u'll be jus as stone as he is. haha.
weigh myself [yes. it's been so long since i last scaled myself n the scale at home is broken. MUST BE] n the result was ARGH!put on 5kgs. mo'fo. i cant wait to finish my time working.. so i'll go back to normal state of not eating.working has my made my appetite UNLIMITED. eating at every hour [exaggerating].. if there's food, there's definitely eating.flabby here and there now. fucking sadddddd
3 more mths of work.. 3 more.. then off to being no money again.. i seriously dunno if i'm anticipating skool.. or not.all the socialising step again. YAWN.i finally figured what i wanna do when i have the qualification. n i realised mum has nv been supportive in whatever i wanna do,period. typical.=S

the very same nite.. or mornin. [i cant tell the diff] marilyn made my heart skip 3 beats [yes not one] sayin "we got into a car accident". gurl. u better not kid me. but gd thing u'r fine. :D
sunday.. spent the whole day slping.. and watchin live 8. thnks for the discs MA-RO-LEN!

monday... went to work. where else? wahahahah. took time off.. yay to dad for sending me back to mdis to get my fees paid. no yay to u for not forking in a single cent. but u saved my transport fees. YAY! and yay.............................. skool in aug.. yay....................................... n i culdnt believe myself tht i've been dragged by marilyn to tht crapula underage gimmick tmr. sheesh sheesh sheesh.

Mmairah said sth at....:11:13 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

okkk. i have got to admit tht justin lacey [or whatever his name is] is HOT. woo. so they were at raffles place giving away nivea whitening lotion, topless. and all of them looks hot. wahahaha

most were queueing up under his line anyways. and the guys were all topless and sweaty...[not so sure if it's a euuww or SWOoOOns.] so he was gg with a dead beat accent tone "sorry this is so slow" "wow. so many ladies" "this is a whitening blablabla." "sorry sir. it's only for the ladies" "hi. enjoy." "have a nice day. take care" "here u go" believe me. it's a dead tone. but quite cool. hahaha.

WEDNESDAY

TOURIST YES WE GT LOST YES IN RAFFLES YES. KAWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII neh.

Mmairah said sth at....:1:04 AM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

so saturday... was pretty alright. did the usual. there were like 4 plans but have to ditched 2 of 'em. oh well not really. hah.

it was pretty rushy here and there. marilyn changed the bloody timeslot and she herself was unsure of it. tsktsk. n it made me the earliest [wad a miracle] becuz i was already otw to somewhere else.. so i ended backing up on it n went str to margaret drive..
u noe.. it's definitely a GOOD thing tht i was waiting at a jamming studio instead of elsewhere cuz den.. i'll wait with little-boredom and alot ALOT of stoning and pigeons-gazing, fighting over food and how funny they eat. such small mouth could scatter the food pretty all over.

i practically waited for those 2 like 1 hr plus. i think it's karma...retribution.. whatever. hahhaha. cuz i usually made them wait.. but still......

it wasnt so bad.. but i was pretty badly distracted somehow.. [not tht i havent always been NOT distracted] i kept screwing up [again.. not as if i dun always KEEP screwing up]. and marilyn gt her parts all rite! congratulations babe! wad an achievement it was for u... not for me. heh.

so.. [i noe. i realised i used alot of "SO"] after THT we rushed off to ngee ann's concert band thingy.. i culd have not gone bt my dear gurl has already paid six bucks for it [which i probably have to pay her back]. so it's not as if i'm bein forced to.. but more like HAVE to. [define THT].

so [oh there i go again].. was supposed to reach home by 9.. and yet, i reached at 11. shldnt have fag on the way back. migraine has gotten so bad tht when i walk, i nearly smash my head against a truck's side view mirror... mum was YAY! she's in a good mood cuz she's sick [ok not really] maybe becuz my aunt n coz was over at my place. heh heh.

urgh! my coz always takes up the most space when slpin. i was literally on the edge of the bed with no less than a mere inch of a comforter. n another URGH! my unknown rashes hasnt got any better. it's becoming red-der [if there's such a word].

SUNDAY! how i hate the next day is monday.. sigh. why cant the day after sunday be.. like... say.. friday? so it'll be.. friday.. sat.. sun.. fri.. sat.. sun.. fri.. [ok i think u get the point]... so [uh oh] i was practically lying ard watchin friends the whole day.. [not really.. since it's still sunday now] and i'm HUNGRY. working has definitely [x10] increase my f*cking appetite [i shall refrain myself frm too much profanities]. evryday eat eat eat = fat fat fat. how ironic tht those two words are so similar in a way n tht e is after f.

ok i hate long entries.. but i just loveeeeeee gg on and on and on and on.

*a lovely fren once said. blog bout everyday event so when u read, u'll look back on what u've done to BLABLABLABLABLA.

Mmairah said sth at....:8:49 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

fuck sia! my feet are damn itchy. rashes popping out just like popcorn. eeuw gross. hahahah! i'm scratching non stop even while typing these. n i have no idea wad caused it.. at first it was this one dot so i scratched and today it was like woahhh massive attack!

ok so.. i took half day leave today. it was the biggest dilemma i have ever been on. i was practically deciding if i shld.

why i shld : - get to go home and slp [which is "riiiiiiiiite"]
- no work [duh?]
- get to do wadeva i wan! [which is nth]

why i shldnt : - MONEY!! MONEY!!
- well.. i felt like i was lying to myself.. although i AM sick but not THT sick to be taking half day.

i think my mum's hallucinating.. it's so. so WEIRD. she coughed and she asked me if my bro's back frm camp cuz she heard some1 cough. [errrrrrrrrrr??] hahahahaha!

ya and thnks to mum, i'm sick. and these rashes are killing me!!

have to go to so many places tmr. dunno if tht shld be a yay or a boooo.

i miss ******-***!! yes i miss astericks and stars. hahhahha

Mmairah said sth at....:10:42 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Dear blog,
i am so inspired to 'write' to you for the moment.. yet i cant seemed to be able to think of something nice to start with.
many many things have took place.. oh wait.. i'm not so sure.

i have never [yes NEVER] realised how depressed i am.. well tht's besides the point.
to think of how much more of my life will continue to be more and more screwed.
to think tht if this is to much to endure.
to think of just letting it all go.
to think tht.. this might be the last and yet, it's not.

and i'm a walking, talking, moving, living contradiction.
the facade i put on, the charade i portray.
the heaps of confounded catechization
the fables i share
the responsibilty i shunned aside
the fact tht i refused to not be oblivious
the failures i cant seem to avoid n heading my way real fast

to always be smiling when the ugly truth is vice versa.
to always try cheer someone up when [ditto]
to always be laughing when deep down it is choked and waiting to burst
the wiles i used tht happened to work.
the voices i hear and speak to, in me.
yes, and the lies i have to carry.

how i want to come apart at the seam tht seemed barely possible.
how badly jinxed i am [the cracked phone, the rip apart shoes, the cursings, the lectures.. all at the same day]

and the irony i have tht the world is so squared.
and 6,608 number of days i have lived till this very moment.
and the time i've calmly massacre when i'm supposed to clearing my room

oh well.. back to cleaning. or shld i say. i better start since it's erm.. 2320 now.

as cliche as this might sound.. this is so random...... hah!

Mmairah said sth at....:10:01 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

definition of myself : - a worthless white elephant tht has a fucking catastrophe. FIASCO..

Mmairah said sth at....:8:45 PM