Friday, June 30, 2006

yes i'm sick and the whole world's as pathetic.

why issit so hard to achieve sth. why must there always be THE first.
why issit so hard to accept. why must there always be be negativity.

ok honestly. i dunno wad's my point here.

*coughs
urgh. i so goddamn hate being a push over. ppl might not noe, but u will noe urself best, wun u? u're being taken for granted. only wanted when u're needed.
every interests i have in me seems to die off.. for now. [hopefully]
i solely believe in loner-ism.

and this annoys me most ; placing ur listening ears to some1 else's fucking sad tragedy but vice versa wise.. it's like asking and hoping gold bars would grow out of the trees.

so anyways. enuff said of random brooding-ness, pass few days had been a blast or so... [not like there's really anything exciting]
so tmr or say later.. [30th june] was supposedly to be my last day of work. guess how thrilled n psyched i was. being able to bum ard. back to being fit [fat lard i am now.]. but i guess tht culd nv happen becuz the other dept kinda need help so i'm being transferred over to the Wealth Management. [dude. i cant even manage and plan my mthly finance] bummer. so it's back to socialising - step 1. kinda sucky i must say.. cuz i hate socialising. [heh!] i'll probably get a nervous panic or worst, breakdown. [wow. tht serious].

so where have all my frens gone to? dead i supposed. n i'm coughing non stop till my brain juice is spewing and my head is swelling. woo n i have free passes to catch superman later too. i was kinda thinking whom to ask along.. but decided a min after the news tht whoever call me within the next 5 mins out of "nature" will go with me. heh.

ok i think i'll just have to learn to shut up.

Mmairah said sth at....:1:24 AM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

sigh. ok my whole body is gg to crumble into pieces, i swear. think yest had lack of slp. thnks to marilyn. [yes. u're part of my story again]

okok so here's a quickie [sounds like i'm gg to fag or piss]
i'm kinda in a tiff with mum lately. ok. i culd see myself.. in the grounds of "parental" suspension. so she thinks the reason why i always go to work late is a scheme to come home lateR. which is.. not true i guess. heh.

so, typical marilyn wans to have dinner at LAU PA TAT [lau pasat]. too bad i'm broke. so we had... stingray and... black pepper squid.. [issit?] hah. dunno wadssup with her. cuz we had stingray AND squid too at newton just last week. [oh my..] prata nxt.

so anyways. typical impulsive marilyn decided to come by my hse.. JACK ASS! ok i have to apologise for most of the corrupted disc. dunno wads wrong with it. used to be fine. DAWN OF THE DEAD! and SKOOL OF ROCK. so.. watch watch watch.. time read as 4.30+A.M.ante meridiem [A.M.]. u shld have just slpt over la. save ur cab fare. so because of THIS, i'm now very very slpy. cuz i slpet at 5 woke up at 7.

so today i'm supposed to do my favor by dropping by starbucks. but i didnt cuz my phone batt was flat. damn sad. must have been becuz talk to so many ppl on the line today esp ian. sheesh. annoying.

ok so anyways my eyes are deceiving my mind. AND come to ngee ann poly thingy. nice. at 2 this sat. pay 2 pr hr. bucks, wee

Mmairah said sth at....:1:26 AM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

ok. so i said i was gg to self ground myself. seems like tht didnt happen for today. actually it wasnt so bad larhs. i told mum i'll be back by 9.. but.. close to 11 instead. ok my bad. so she had the right to yell at me. but yell nicer ones for once i hope. but.. nope. not gonna come true either. hahahaa

thnks for the sotb. but i'm fucking starved. so now i feel like puking. omgnesss... i think i shld let the bed bugs salvage me soon before i actually puke. n my eyes are like RED.. yay-ness =.=

so this was the event. went to meet unknown n fren.to harry's.blablabla.to speacialist.starbucks.marilyn[my second love, so nice of her to actually "gave" me a bagel when i ask].created noise pollution.just like the uncivilised barbarians i always dissed, i've turned into one[for the moment].sorry for the disturbance.went home.still starving.no food cuz of the war i didnt fail to suppress earlier on.sigh.the end.

Mmairah said sth at....:1:28 AM

Sunday, June 18, 2006

what i hate about blogging is when u blogged halfway and everything just disappears.
and was typing halfway when dear cousin decided to pop a conversation.. there i go, having to tell my pathetically sob life story.

as cliche as this might sound.. life IS unfair.

enuff of tht. so saturday was good AND bad. to start off the day. flocked over to marilyn's place. [yerps. FLOCKED =.= wad a word]. i was putting down her confidence in her oufit cuz i was wearing an oversized tee [which she gt for me. so sweet yet so big] but den again i wuld like to apologise for the sulky mood. felt kinda shitty. how was the silent treatment? bet it was good. HAHA. no machine gun [courtesy of russell for calling me tht]

so headed off to fort canning to catch matin's band perform in rock d'fort. it's a not a bad gig overall. [ok cant really judge cuz we only caught 3 acts] we kinda snuck in as well. which is kinda cool cuz u actually have to pay 10 bucks for it. HAHAHA. shld have asked nat along. den she culd groove to some sweet old skool rock and roll [rock tigers!] or maybe funk..

then... off to town. i really think i shld have gone home. mum was right. no money better not roam the earth. HAH. wad nonsense was tht. what i meant to say is.. no money = stay home. so anyhow... caught silent hill with mar and russell. so while queuing up to get some pop corns. mats being the NORMAL annoying mats basically just a pain in the ARSE. [bah.. ] took a cab home... cab fare was 31 bucks. OMG la. lucky there were the both of them to sponsor me moolahs. i actually tawt i had to slp by the streets of orchard. [which is kinda cool for those whose dreams had been wanting to stay in orchard district. guess the streets are exquisite enuff haha.] reached home exactly 2 am. mum was like.. u dun reach by 2 u'r dead. and TA-DA! 2 am sharp i entered my sanctuary. n there goes my "night" outings [not like i really have one.. but still i can kiss gdbye to it]

yes! and no doubt tht the next weekend will be a pretty healthy one with no fag cuz i'm broke. anticipating. 40 more days to end of work. i THINK. mum might have gt me a lobang to work at some ritzy golf "boutique" like wth. golf, the least likeable sport. but as long as it can make me earn my income WHY NOT!? hahahaha

OH and it was father's day. i didnt even rmb. HAHA. not much of a significant aye. my house has turned its ground into a battlefield. everyone's ignoring everyone else. only den my mum decided to talk to me. so.. they received silent treatment as well. how i miss giving silent treatments. hahaha. n how hurt u'll feel when ur own mum will call u a slut. n how long i havent cried myself to slp. [quite gd actually. cuz when u cry u tend to fall aslp faster]

argh! i need to get my eyes check asap. i'm getting BLIND. i even stop the wrong bus. AHAHA. and pretended like i didnt flag for it. this is probably worsen due to staring into the screen from work to home. BAD. [kids, dun ever do tht.] save ur eyesight. LOOK more at green objects! tree leaves! not the brown ones pls. hah.

hah. i culd actually write a novel about a day's event. but i bet it's gg to be boring. so i'll just let it be a composition. :)

Mmairah said sth at....:10:22 PM

Friday, June 16, 2006

went to work. late [as usual]. went to bank in $3m+++. [woah]. end of work. met marilyn. gave me a shirt [thnks!]. went to Wake Me Up Studio. Slack. Jammed for free. TALK. met up with Wan. went newton. eat. stingray and squids. sat. chilled. joked. walked back to mrt station. gt a "kiss" frm Mar. [still owing two] went up the overhead bridge. Mar made me looked n sounded like an idiot. have to say "banana" for a gazillion times. den to orange. made my hair stand. so dark n creepy. some1 gt raped there b4. [tsk] went back home. BOMB. had enuff of wedgy. [haha!] online. hear lightning see thunder [hahaha!!! sec skool days] raining soon. [yay! hopefully] blogged. work soon. FRIDAY! off to bed.

Note: read in monotone-ly like a robot.

Mmairah said sth at....:2:14 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006

so i've been sitting down here thinking wad i shld blog. but it seems tht my mind isnt responding to the slightest feat [ok wadeva tht means.. THT is wad my mind's producing. non relative words] so i was quite on hoping tht sth rad might churn out as i type these nothingness. [well.. tht's usually the case]

i think i need more than a day's rest. my whole body just feel ready to collapse at a split nano second.

since it now reads MONDAY, the mood just swell. cuz it's monday bluessss.. i think it's quite a pity tht blue is actually associated with such boring-ness. i wonder wad colur does randomness represent. cuz i'm feeling kinda random now. does this look random or simply of not making much sense?

so it has been a rainy season these past few weeks isnt it? ok la. i'm gg to stop. wad nonsense am i talking..

oh no wait. i wanna say BIG HUG TO NAT for turning up. yay u rock. n thnks to THE UNKNOWN too. yes. it's a pretty drama one.. esp.. u-noe-whom. whaahaha. n nat better send me the video ah. LOL. ok i noe u're not reading this.. but if it so happens. anyhow, u're a great drummer to be! heh heh. the self-hired photographer. wahahaha

n sorry to caylynn for not making it to her performance as well. the next one! better keep me inform!

and carrying ard huge bass amp isnt of any fun. lol. MARILYN U OWE ME A BIG ONE.

n for the rest of u.. U SUCK. wahhahahahahahahahahhaahaha.

Mmairah said sth at....:1:56 AM