Saturday, April 22, 2006

stone.. stone.. stone.. and more stoning. my head is heavy and so is my shoulder with the many many lies i carry.

i really really reallyyyyyyyy do appreciate people like marilyn.. and egan.. and who else? [probably those of whom i have meaningful talks with] hmm. anyways. kudos to them for knocking some sense into me, today.. tmr.. the next day.. and the next day and the next day.. and... yeaaaaaaa. sometimes talking bout life's miserable-ness and enjoyment puts me in a spot to be a real person. not some lunatic witty "shit". and i dun have to be an asshole to be gloating over someone else's misery.

quote from my dearest wise frens.. "always look on the bright side of life and stay POSITIVE!"
so i've learned not to hate life now. :D although how sucky-ly bad it can get..

today was "fun" compared to the days i have on weekdays.. DUH. haha. [those of whom noes me.. noes how sucky it culd get.. with the constant ringing up frm my dearest mum]
i wasted alot and alot of M&Msss. fed the floor instead of the HUMANS tht are "anticipating" to eat it. and they were eating magic dust or wadeva is tht call.. and marilyn, thnks for tht sticky-sweet-peck. bwahhahaha.
jamming was o-kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. dalive said we were fooling ard. well if u're reading this.. we werent. we still played non stop music. yeayea dun take it too personnallyyyyy. i noe.
so after jamming we hung ard the studio. cuz i didnt wan to go home early.. and tht poor egan has got no1 to be of his company [awwwwww] although wan and marilyn are having fever [get well soon!!].
so we sat and fag and talk and fag and talk and fag. marilyn the mad moo moo whom decided to take out the filter. mad gurl! look at the amount of tar tht's gg to get in u. funny. wads so funny i dunno. and ohhhhhhh i'm so gonna blog bout this!! now tht i rmbered it was hilarious only tht i was too stoned to laugh just now. anyhoooss..marilyn wanted to BOMB but the ladies was locked and the gents' lights were off. and so she went in without closing the door. imagine if i were to leave u there. with the main and ur door, open! BWHAAHAH! ok but i did not. see i'm nice afterall. or have i been one all these while? wahahah

i cant think straight now.. tht's for the endless typing here. just cant seem to stop. a lil schizophrenic i must say.

oh another thnks to my dearest MARILYN. thnks for the cab fare. although i had to give him a strip tease cuz it was overshot.

and i fell aslp while typing all these. sheehsh.

wow. wad a boring long post. i'm sorry to the ppl who wants to read it. well i bet noone reads it anyways. tht's the fun part. blogging for the fun of bein a certified schizo.

Mmairah said sth at....:11:53 PM

my dad came home to get some of his stuffs for the weekend. and he brought his bitch along. she was sitting in the car though. fucking hell. i even need to shake her hands just becuz i came to the stupid car. big mistake. act like some socialite. fucking asshole . hahaha. just pissed tht's all.

lay my hands off.

and stupid roach tht crawled on my leg. i;m so gonna squash u when i find u. which will nv happen. cuz u irks me. hahahah!

Mmairah said sth at....:2:09 AM

Friday, April 21, 2006

i see my head floating up up upppppppppp the ceiling. well tht's just a metaphor.

i wuld like to thnk pam for accompanying me. hahahaha

marilyn rocks rocks rocks ROCKS. hhhahahhaahaha.

it's good to have fun ass kicking frens. hahhahaa

do i laugh alot?? hmmm shld cut down ah. be all mellowwwwwwwwww. hahhahha

and yet.. i'm laughing my wayyyyy

my head's not floating anymore!! i'm bounded to the ground once again! yay! there's not a need to take off ur clothes! but still.. i think i'm high. hmm

fo'shizzle ma'hizzle. hahahaa. o-kaaaaaaaaaaaay

i realise now my taggywag has become a debate center for living in the north south east west. wahahha

ok.... time to stop.. it's friday!! yay!! i lurveeeeeee when time passes so fastttttttt.
gonna go inline skating.. or skatingggg with urs trulyyyy.

P&M business getting good oso. we gt ourselves a new client.. SHAN! welcome to the club of FOC at the point of time but pay up by the end of the mth. hahha ok tht's hogwash.

i might seem all happy but i;m not. like this WISE person i noe of [marilyn]. FACE THE PROBLEM. THINK POSITIVELY! did she say sth like tht? hahahha. hmmm oh swelll..

Mmairah said sth at....:12:05 AM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

wad a day today..

and i culdnt believe myself... tht i told my brother [out of all ppl] my deepest darkest secret..
just becuz of this incident.. i think i acted on impulse. the usual me. impulsive. but i hope things doesnt turn up strange btw us though... still now it feels all weird.. why in the world did i tell him..i'm not so sure... luckily for me.. it's not the same kind of on gg sibling relationship we used to have.. if not.. i'd be better off dead.. now.. at least a family member noes tht i fag.. but still i'm praying every min tht he wun spill the beans.. cuz he's doin it too.. soo woohoo. somehow this family saga has brought me and bro closer..

this is boring. i've been yapping bout this family drama everytime. SICK.

how bout... PAM! LET's MOVE TGT!!! to the west?! nono. central!!? on?!? hahhahaha. no yishun plssssss. so SIAN. hahhahahaa yea. we were sitting at the bus stop talkin bout THT. how.. nice............

wad else wad else..
i have promised myself too.. tht i'll start to be punctual but yet again.. tht culd simply be put off as another lie. bt it's also a promise to my dearest pomelo. tmr i'm gg to be early for work!!!

and.. i'm broke. dunno work for wad.

i feel like i'm cheating myself and my mum. damn.

ACTUALLY... i had wanted to blog about so many things but the mood just died and faded so.. now i'm totally clueless. AND i need some help in getting back my focus... seems to be drifting as well..

i think my name has officially changed to MAIRAH. the poor UltiMateMAIRAH is gone. wahhhahaa. stop kicking the UM of Mairah ppl. ok larhs fine. i am gg on and on and on and on and on. maybe i shld just stop

Mmairah said sth at....:12:11 AM

Friday, April 07, 2006

guess wad! i can play the freaking intro just by learning it an hr. ok... not wanna say i'm Tom now.. but. well.. at least i can play it. wahhaha. [i'm so happy.. although i noe tht song's intro is freaking simple. but it's my fav. so go and say i sucked. i couldnt be a lil less bothered]

7th april... the one where we wuld all go happy anniversary!!! but this year it seems not much of a significance. today wuld be 22 yearssssss....., 22 freaking years.
tsktsk.

Dolly treat me lunch today. although yea yea. nth much to say.. and omgness. i only covered two bad cases today. if she were to find out... she'll be shocked! since i usually finish one whole code per day.. [which is ALOT.. try 100] sheesh.

tiring week. tiring week.

jilly's all saddddd if i were to move. lol. ok. considerations proposal of NOT moving are on the table. YAY!!!! *plsplsplsplsplsplsplssss.

with fingers crossed and high hopes.. i leave it as it is.. for now..

Mmairah said sth at....:10:20 PM

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Ok. so the day has come. the verdict has been settled. and i'm not pleased with everything tht has been happening to me. since the first day of my life. so... chances are. [99%] moving out of this 12 yrs old hse. good bye nearby frens! gd bye.. home.. ok.. tht's tad lame.

ok mum's pissed with me AGAIN and her pissing off with me ticked me. $^%&@$#&^@$#~!!!

sigh. ok now i feel like dying. ok.. not.

hmm. i really think somehow i have mental issues. yay to tht.

ps; sorry to ppl i have been screaming my lungs out these few days. even though u dun read this.. still.. this is the only thing i can "talk" to rite now.

so this is the turning point for me. i wuld like to thnk my dad for everything he has done. and... for making it "ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY".

Now THAT's hogwash.

Mmairah said sth at....:2:41 AM