Friday, June 30, 2006

yes i'm sick and the whole world's as pathetic.

why issit so hard to achieve sth. why must there always be THE first.
why issit so hard to accept. why must there always be be negativity.

ok honestly. i dunno wad's my point here.

*coughs
urgh. i so goddamn hate being a push over. ppl might not noe, but u will noe urself best, wun u? u're being taken for granted. only wanted when u're needed.
every interests i have in me seems to die off.. for now. [hopefully]
i solely believe in loner-ism.

and this annoys me most ; placing ur listening ears to some1 else's fucking sad tragedy but vice versa wise.. it's like asking and hoping gold bars would grow out of the trees.

so anyways. enuff said of random brooding-ness, pass few days had been a blast or so... [not like there's really anything exciting]
so tmr or say later.. [30th june] was supposedly to be my last day of work. guess how thrilled n psyched i was. being able to bum ard. back to being fit [fat lard i am now.]. but i guess tht culd nv happen becuz the other dept kinda need help so i'm being transferred over to the Wealth Management. [dude. i cant even manage and plan my mthly finance] bummer. so it's back to socialising - step 1. kinda sucky i must say.. cuz i hate socialising. [heh!] i'll probably get a nervous panic or worst, breakdown. [wow. tht serious].

so where have all my frens gone to? dead i supposed. n i'm coughing non stop till my brain juice is spewing and my head is swelling. woo n i have free passes to catch superman later too. i was kinda thinking whom to ask along.. but decided a min after the news tht whoever call me within the next 5 mins out of "nature" will go with me. heh.

ok i think i'll just have to learn to shut up.

Mmairah said sth at....:1:24 AM