.::. My Own Sweet Oath .::.

2007-07-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

time for an update, once in a blue moon. and the reason i'm allowed to do so is because i'm home! [hahahha] yes, i stayed home the whole day. after two days straight of coming home 4 in the morning..... of course i'd be home cause i'm grounded! woots!

anyways... work is fine. i'm back to my old self. no commitments! [woohoo]
"they try to make me go to rehab, i said NO NO NO"

went "zouk-ing" or more like phuture-ing on friday, with the usual loves of my life, pam hot stuff, mich gorg chio, and manda! [wahhahaa. gay] i think we kinda drank alot. but we were fine! for the first time! [hahahhaa] we went in early so we'd pay less. let me try to list what we had......
->screwdriver
->lime vodka
->tequila pop
->peach martini [dunno how many rounds of it]
->lychee martini
->[i think it was...] sex on the beach shooter. [hahhha]
-> sip of their beer
and i dunno what else... oh! cigarettes of course!
oh oh oh! we were lesbians on that night. [HAHHA.] just to keep those guys from pestering us. but we ended up being pestered still. my one and only, nat joined soon after she said she wont be joining. [hahhaha. i love u nat for coming even though you were dead beat] hmmm now to think of it... pam and mich always went missing halfway for toilet break! left me, nat and manda to tell the guys off. and they bought the lie about me studying in UCLA and that i'm on a holi break. [HAHAHAHHA. o m g. if only i studied there... my dream!] but PAM! u hot stuff larhs. tht guy kept asking for you. [hahhaha] nat and i were dancing and dancing the usual and he cannot take it. he kept smiling and pretend to cover his face. cannot handle. too hot. [wahahahahhaa] but to think of it... at least he's better than the fat guy in appearance... but he bloody hell spilt his drink on mich gorg chio. went to have "supper".... blablablaaaaaaa reached home ard 4...

and then, met up on sat. my darling pam drove us ard. i love u pam! [wahhahaha] wanted to watch the simpsons... but it was so hard to get parking at cine... picked nat and shan up and went wheelock instead... had dinner and they didnt want to watch in lido.. so back to cine! but the movie timing was at 1.30am.... and it was only 10 plus i think. so we left for to pick kellie up at tanjong katong complex.. den off to see bapoks at changi! wait, on the way there... pam did a fast turn. which left everyone at the backseat squashed to michelle. DO IT AGAIN PAM! [hahahahaha. hilarious] so back to changi's topic, sad to say... there were only a few we saw. kinda disturbing still. den we drove off to the RED DISTRICT to see the human market. wa seh! happening. so many chi ko peks there. damn gross..... rounded the area for quite awhile.. checking out the pretty, the ugly, and... place they were manufactured. [heh.] but most of them [tht lined up in a row] are pretty. sad for them man. serve these kind of guys desperate for sex. tsk!

den went to have tau hui... [dunno how to spell larhs. ] off to kel's place... and just nice the car broke down. [HAHAHA. this is the fun part] we got to push the car while shan's friend tries to jump start.... and it worked! [by the time it was coming 3?] den went to send michelle back... afterwhich we took the route back to yck... very ulu.. very scary.. like there were no other cars... and all mist...fogs... wooooooooooo.... [hahahahhaa] and i reached home at 4am again.

so this is why i'm so free to blog nth... but these. [hahhha]

2007-07-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

so much has happened in my life! so many new things. so many changes.

yes i have a job. and pam's forever talking bout the adorable-you-know-whom. [wahahaha]

have been zouking with dearly beloveds for two friday straight. all so randomly unplanned.
dont tell me this friday again pam. [wahhaaha.] but gt money! why not.

was at christina aguilera's concert on sat. for those who didnt go SHAME ON YOU. it was awesome balls! she's so hotttttttt. and her vocals are fabulous.

ok i dont know what else to update. pam! psp challenge again! [wahhahahaha] it's not over brazil vs england. man u vs liverpool! [wahhaahahahhaa]

oh and by the way. good luck with the old dude. [HEH!]

N congrats shandy for getting well. and being able to lock yourself at home for the longest time i think you could ever have never imagined.

2007-06-07T02:09:00.000+08:00

met pam today! i just love her too much. and.. she too smart larhs. dont want take my advice on sam. tsktsktsk. but again.. thank you!! [wahahha]
joked all the way.. to anything as lame as a person could get..

have been mia-ing for awhile.... from the cyber world i meant. damn. supposedly to go for ubin today! but... due to unforeseen circumstances............

and kellie.. get well soon!

and caylynn.. i miss you! [wahhhahaa]

and shandy... i wanna dance all night long!!!! [wahhahaha]

and su! foodingggggggggggg!!!!

ok who else? [wahhahhaaaaaa]

man that was random. and sorry if i missed anyone out.. which is quite obvious there are..... oh well. hope it's all goodddddddd.

2007-06-02T03:40:00.000+08:00

i need more sleep!! i didnt get my 12 hrs of hibernation aka beauty sleep, this whole week! so i feel lethargic most of the time and especially after meal. and i'm starting to eat alot again! oh no.. fat!

anyways, wednesday was fun like usual. met up with the lovely lovelies. love them so much! [wahahaha] i want to thank pam for everything that she'd treated us to. dinner was great.

zouk's queue was madness. but thanks to natalie, the air crew, we didnt really "queued". if the queue wasnt bad enough, you shld see the inside. i think can start a whole WWIII right there. [hahha] got high like usual.

was trying my best to locate shandy, but just couldnt. managed to spot edwin instead, whom kept asking me to drink. [sheesh]

blablabla. reached home ard 4.. or plus plus. mum's making so much noise over the phone.

nat still can da pao supper home. [heh]
oh and i want to say thanks to everyone else who guide and lead me through the throngs of people, including the stranger dude whom helped me light up my fag. [heheheh]

ok. today's fran's birthday. happy birthday fran!
sorry i couldnt join you to one night stand.

ok my eyes are killing me. i think i need to slp. happening saturday pls!! [whahaha]

2007-05-28T03:59:00.000+08:00

hello world. i'm back! [not that i've gone anywhere]

alot had happened in the past 10 days or so. but i cant really remember what exactly they were.

but FIRST of all. i'd like to congratulate my darling, PAMELA.
*-* CONGRATULATIONS!
told you i had faith in you. (=
this calls for a celebration!
finally time for some drink drank drunk!

man, it's been so long since i'd actually done some "work". was my cousin's wedding on sat. everyone had started helping out like on monday.. but i'd only gave my precious helping hand on friday. but, i didnt really helped much anyways. more like waste my time away. getting my hands all henna-ed by myself. [great. now i have a hugely-vandalised hand] the cousins were great like usual. 24/7 laughing at our own sillyness. [girl power!]

the wedding was crowded like fuck. and i didnt really do what i'm assigned to do. so the ten bucks they tipped me was like... for nothing. [and now the ten bucks is gone anyways] and out of everyone who came, i spyed on Mr Khalid. it's either we're somehow related or somehow connected through friends, friends, friends. [freaky!] i hope it's the latter.

met up with kellie today for dinner. we had sakura! [wahhaha] she had deng deng kway teow and i had hotplate seafood e-mee. [awesome] then, met hairil at the typical ''lepak" coffee shop where we will smoke, sip teh and teh-o like ah peks and sit til their last bus back. [LBB!!] kellie's cousin, aisha came and then followed by colin and another aisha. and then.... around 12am me and aisha went back home... because i've been neglecting my medications for my ass. [literally a pain in the ass] they missed their last bus [poor thing] but thank god colin drove.

oh yea. the day i went to the doctor was the day i got violated. [wahhahahaha.] then i cycled all the way to pam's place with the pain in the ass, just to see her! so nice of me, i know. [pam: if you dont love me enough, i'll kill you.]

oh oh oh!! and marilyn's fall in the jamming studio was super scary yet at the same time i couldnt pull mysef together to stop laughing. i teared! it was so... i dont know.. hilarious? but you have my concerns, babe. hope you didnt sprain any fingers or so. and i apologise for laughing so hard! i think it's karma. see.. labelling caylynn red indian! [hahahahahhahaa]

and btw, caylynn's hair is AWESOME! but if only she'd cut her tail.. then it'll be SWEET & awesome.

it's kinda funny yet sad when the end of sunday comes and you'd ask a person what's up for tomorrow and they'd most likely to say "school", "work" or whatever activity they have and vice versa i'd say... "more sleep".
man.. that sucks. but the thought of work is killing me and yet... the money that comes in at the month end makes me beam all the way til... not as far as malaysia.

anyways, i've been doing alot of thinking lately, like usual.... i'm really really starting to feel life's such a drag.. argh. such boredom! i'm not sure why's my brain more active at night. like, i could think so much clearer rather than in the day time. oh well, i shall really kick myself in the butt and push, to get me a job at the end of the month. such responsibility you have to carry. dont you just wish you were 16 or something?

and of course, i'm looking forward to spending time with the lovely girls. missed them so much. all their crapping, nuisance r-rated topics and jokes and whatever that comes out from their mouths. [pamela, natalie, michelle and lishan, so dearly missed.] [[wahahahhahhaa. i find that funny somehow. okay i'm starting to go mad.]]

2007-05-17T05:30:00.000+08:00

ok it's coming 6.30am and i'm still awake.
anyways. i just found out i did this survey ancient ago and it's like.. not published. [hahhahaha]

the title's like RANDOM, FUN and LONG - NOT but except for the long part.

RANDOM,FUN AND LONG
What's on your feet?:	dirt i figured. HAHHA sweeeet.
What color are your toe nails?:	au naturel
What color are your finger nails?:	au naturel
How many rings do you have on?:	zilch
What color are your underwear?:	didnt wear any. HAHHAAHHAHA! jokes.
What did you do today?:	nothing out of the norm
What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?:	a year or so?
Are you currently in love?:	nahhhhhhhhh
Who do you miss the most?:	my nv met soul mate?
How far away have you been from home?:	i didnt get the chance to calculate the distance
Have you ever gotten your tongue stuck on a popsicle?:	YA?!!!
What's your middle name?:	i dun have any. does Binte counts? heh.
Are you supersticious?:	superSTITIOUS u mean? at times i guess?
What's the worst state you've ever been in?:	what i am in, now.
How many pets do you have?:	not anymore
What's your Grandma's name on your Dad's side?:	er? i dunno? latifah? no?
What's your Dad's name?:	Abdul Aziz
Do you enjoy fishing?:	maybe with the right people
Are you a vegetarian?:	no?
How many children do you want to have?:	2?
What would be your dream job?:	To Be A Superhero. HAHAHAHAH
Are you tired right now?:	DUH. it's 6 am?
When was the last time you ate an orange?:	last month?
What's the closest thing to you that is yellow?:	a flower
Do you swear often?:	every min
Have you ever fallen off of a roof?:	nope
Have you ever jumped from a roof into a pool?:	nopeee
Can you swim?:	NOPEEEEEE. but i can FLY!
Do you myspace more than you socialize in person?:	nope. dun do both. i'm anti-social
Are you fabulous?:	nopeeeeeeee
What's a nickname of yours?:	TOO MANY to name!
Who did you see last?:	i think it was my dad sleep walking.
When was the last time you got in an argument?:	whenever someone talks to me.
Are you ever mean for no reason?:	YES! awesome.
Do you love cats?:	KITTENS! grown-up cats, scare me.
Have you ever had fish that died?:	ALOT! all of my marine fishes died of tragic death....
Do you pray before bed?:	simple prayers.
Do you dream often?:	even with my eyes open and wide awake.
When was your last nightmare?:	if it's not last nite den it's the night before. but so far so good.
Can you spell well?:	SUPERB. HAHAHHAHA
Do you like bananas?:	if i feel the need to shit, maybe? gives me phlegm.
What is the stinkiest thing you've ever smelled?:	SHIT!
What is the name of one of your Aunts or Uncles?:	Zara. or issit Zahara. hmmm
What's your favorite ice cream flavor?:	a lil some some of choc, caramel, nuts, butterscotch, macademia and the list goess on.
Do you like to sneeze?:	whenever there's sun. not my choice.
What color do you prefer to wear?:	not particular.
Have you ever eaten somewhere you HATED?:	yea
Are you on a diet right now?:	no. just eat baby!
Can you lie with a straight face?:	YEA! i can lie with my face senget too HAHAHA
Did you sneak out when you were younger?:	no? i'm like an angel. i can FLY rmb?
Are you a fast friend maker?:	i'm ANTI social, hello? HAHAH
Who was your best friend in elementary school?:	i choose not to recall. hahahah
Who was your worst enemy in high school?:	some bitch
Who was your longest crush?:	some dude
Have you ever fallen in public?:	tht's me.
Have you ever been to Canada?:	nopeeee
Do you sleep all through the night?:	i sleep through the MORNING n AFTERNOON.
Can your burp the ABC's?:	if i try, maybe.
What's the closest thing to you that is BLUE?:	my shorts.
Are you into debating?:	yes. but i tend to mum when it's my turn
Have you ever almost drowned?:	alot of time. thnk god i can fly.
Are you pregnant?:	NO?
Can you type faster than 50 WPM?:	i can type at 5000 Words Per Min. HAHAHHA
Shall we dance?:	Let's BOOGIE!
What's your favorite animal?:	anything tht wun bite me.
Have you ever kissed a dog on the lips?:	eeuw. kissing animals on the lips is a lil bit gross. just a little. ahah
Do you snore?:	i wasnt paying attention. ....................
Are you hungry right now?:	a minute yes, a minute, no.
What do you usually eat for breakfast?:	bread with peanut butter! AWESOME.
Favorite poet?:	hmmmm. i have to say.. i love poems but i dunno the poet's name.
When will you go to bed tonight?:	i think more like in the morning. SOON!
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:	i think it was my mum.
Look to your right- What do you see?:	whatever musical instruments i have
Look to your left- What do you see?:	kitchen. dun expect me to see sth else do u?
As a child, what was scarier: Closet, or under the bed?:	definitely under the bed!
Have you ever danced the Macarena?:	DUH! it was the in-thing the other time.
Last wedding you were at?:	my long distant cousin's.
Any big plans this year?:	be successful! hahhahaha
Do you find mullets attractive?:	the hair? erm..depends on whom.
Why not?:	i didnt say no? any-o-how only.
Have you ever played dead to scare someone?:	on my nieces and nephews! hahaha
Is there anyone in the house older than you?:	i'm the youngest.. so go figure!
What about younger than you?:	......go figure!!
What was the last thing you watched on TV?:	Porn. HAHAHAH. i dunno er... fear factor i think..
What do you really hate?:	whatever tht annoys me, like LIFE. [emo sia] hahahhaah
Do you smack your lips when you chew?:	WHAT?! i hate that. mouth close people! so rude.
Do your pet peeves take over your life?:	they died in me [i hope], so it's ok. hahha
Do you get strange impulses?:	yes. all the time
When did you weigh yourself last?:	centuries ago. scared of it now. hahh!
Is drinking the right amount of water important to you?:	i guess. but i dun usually drink. dehydrate, save water! hahhahaha
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2007-05-14T04:27:00.000+08:00

**Last Bus Back**
[i'll publicise about this when the day comes, cay should have known already by now.]

today, [13th may] is one of the shittiest day i've dealt with for the month of MAY. [argh!!!] i'm still quite pissed off. pissy piss PISSED! [FUCK!]

life's a bitch, life's a bitch, life's a bitch, life's a bitch, life's a bitch, life's a bitch, life's a bitch!! [x1 million]

met up with kellie and marilyn at night for... i supposed unplanned supper at kap. they made the "day" for me, much better. [thanks babesssss.] marilyn gave us roses [HUGE] for motherfuckers day. [ahhaha. funny.] which i gave to my mum to "kiss&makeup" things with her.... [she wasnt the cause of the pissy-pissed. but she add-on to be part of it at 11pm]

anyways, bixia had tagged me and now i'm supposed to write 6 weird things about myself?
but everyone already know there're like a million weird things about me. [hahhaha.] oh well, i should just play along and list a few.....

+ i think i'm pretty much suffering from a mild OCD. [OCD already has like a thousands of weird things to it]

+[-]+ i like to dig my butt and smell my finger. [HAHAHAHHA! i'm kidding of course]
fuck that.

i think i'll just list my OCD-ness.

[-] i really have to arrange things in order. aware or unaware, i'll just arrange in terms of shape, size, date, colour and whatnots. when i'm going to bed, i'll arrange my soft-toys [yay! mmairah has soft toys!] in order by my bed, i pretty darn make sure that the throw-pillows are surrounding them on the sides and the unused big pillows are covering on top. just so to keep them guarded in case they come to live. [HAHAHAHA. it IS true. i do this every darn night]
When making the bed, i'll put them back exactly how they were placed before.

[-] i'll have to do things over and over and over until i'm pretty much satisfied [beyond a normal human's doings] before moving on with my life. [hahahahhaha these includes checking, washing, blablablablablaaaa]
this is too weird. i shall try others.

[-] the first thing i do when i wake up is to grab my specs! because i'm totally BLIND without it.
hmmm. this is not weird enough

[-] i'll have to cover myself with the comforter, blanket or whatnot, from head to toe in order for me to sleep in peace.
Just like a dead body.

[-] i dont find brad pitt hot.
is this weird? because girls go gugu-gaga over him. WEIRD?! he's like so... ack.

[-] i talk alot but if asked to approach someone i'd be too wussed to do so. even if it's over the phone. i'm phone-phobic. [hahahahaah]
might be the reason why i still have yet to call for a job interview.

AND

[-] i'm simply UMMAIRAH. if the name's not weird enough, i have nothing else to say.
Who in the world has a double M spelling for the name Umaira?! ME, of course. one of the few uniquely-weird spelled people.
i rest my case. [hehh!]

ok that's 6 right? so now i'm supposed to tag another 6 people, which i cant be bothered to. i tag everyone who's alive and reading this weird-tag.

WEIRD.

ps: pam! free later? [wahahahha] later as in whenever you chance upon this.... best if it be today. or so. wahhaha. ok i dont really know what i'm saying. but.. yea. i'll call you later.

2007-05-12T05:22:00.000+08:00

First of all, i want to apologise to my blog for neglecting it. [HAHHA]

I have totally forgotten bout the existence of the lappy. [i'm sorry too!] too much gaming and reading.

anyways, what i've done in the past week was quite normal.
-i caught spiderman 3 with morales [EMO SPIDEY!]
-lunch with jilly-ann. [ajf] and den bar hopping with kellie, fran and marilyn, from hard rock to wala-wala.
-then on sat was Aaron's birthday thingy... and then was supposed to meet up with the lovelies but like usual it was cancelled so instead went to guitar77 to jam for fun and ended up being super high or nearly drunk... thanks to rui of guitar77.
i was using the newpaper to cover my face because my puke came out halfway while tapping out of the yishun train station. [eeeuww]
i think the first time ever i actually had so much beer. he kept on buying and buying. [omg.]

and then this week..
-went to bar none with caylynn for the usual wgb performance that she wont miss. and sherry and her friend too.
-on wed my brother got his bike. he took me around my area [=.-] ended up at my aunt's place. damn funny larhs cuz my parents thought he just ride me around the carpark. i think they practically waited half an hour at the kitchen's window. [HAHHA]
but i'd say he's riding skills not bad larhs. like damn relax sia. [hahha]
-then on thursday! met up with joel, caylynn, kellie, marilyn, fran and shandy for movie. 28 weeks later. [thanks for the donation guys! bwahha] after the movie went separate ways with cay and joel and met kellie's awesome cousin, amoi. [HAHHA]
kellie gt a new cool hairstyle, and tattoo under her collarbone. but went off with amoi before the tatts were fully done cuz we were rushin for the last transport.

thanks everyone for the fagssssss. [hahhahahah!! budget larhs. donate abit]

i miss SAM!!! [arghhh]

........SAMPOERNA larhs. dont anyohow get the wrong idea. [bwahahaha]

and life's practically a bitch again. -shrugs. i'm starting to doubt that a person could really ever change. sigh.

PS : sorry for the mia-ing. and i'll see you soon pam!

2007-04-30T03:36:00.000+08:00

mannn. the weather's like so awesome now.

anyways. i've definitely failed in my aim to switch back my fucked up sleep timing to the regular. as you can see, i'm still online! [sheeeesh] guess i have to try another day. [one day wasted.]

met up with helen on sat. it was nice seeing her again, after quite awhile. [hahhahha i would never forget the days when i used to bully her back in primary school, NEVER.] we talked crap, alot. and as usual talked about other people. [hehh] i was kinda broke, but not entirely. couldnt decide between pastamania or ljs. but i'm damn sure she wanted to eat pasta. [hahhaha. cuz we chose the latter] she made me go through freaking barbie doll shopping for her.... er.. cousin? niece? [i have no idea] but it was like... dolls. [argh! hahhhaha] then we went starbucks. and her bf came soon after.. and i sat there like a freaking idiot while waiting to meet anyone that was free. [hahhahhaha loner] thank god i have my dan brown's company. [hehh.]

and then, met up with cay to go timbre. timmy rocks man. and there was westgrand too. and some [i think V channel] filming there. Ngak's shirt got beetle! [HUGE, eeeeeeeeeeek]

so today, i meant sunday was supposed to go.. somewhere. either out with niece or some other people but my mum last minute [typical] told me that, have to go this birthday function thingy. [argh] then end up, not going. cuz my dad was supposed to be home early, but he procrastinated and my mum was a little annoyed with his woodball sport so she decide not to get ready. and THEN, when my dad reached home, sees her not ready, he was a little mad. then ta-da ended up some stupid quarrel and not going.

so i got to watch dancefloor. i think it's like the best performance put up by all the contestants. [oh and i dreamt i danced with Vas man, the night before! whooo. bwahahahha] and around 10, pam called. met up with her. she had a beetle on the back of her shirt too!! [eeeek!! only her's smaller. but stilll....] had a few beers [her, i hate beers. stuck at a can for hours] and it was kinda of a suicide cuz i was drinking underneath my house. [void deck larhs. not underground base or what] and pam, was on the verge of going to tipsyness [ahhahhaha. dun deny!] we mixed coke with the beer. it didnt turn out as bad as i had expected. but instead it wasnt bad. it taste of coke but the after effect was of beer. so it's like drinking beered-coke or something like that. [hahhaha.] funny thing was. she drank and i asked her how was it and she was like "did i drink it?" and she drank AGAIN! my god.. [ahhahhaa] went up to my place and stayed til 1 plus am... i hope she can wake up for work later! [fingers crossed] and i hope she's fine now as i speak.

ps: PAM! dont worry okay. i'm always here for youuuuuuu. and I LOVE YOU! cuz you're my darlingggg. you know that. I DONT HAVE TO THINK [bwahahhahaah.] he's just insensitive that's all. or maybe he wasnt aware of what that sentence would actually mean. you know, singaporeans.. we kinda speak bad english. well.. most of us at least. [come'on dont deny, this includes me and not proud of it. sad man, we people. tsk]

2007-04-27T04:43:00.000+08:00

hello hello. nope, i'm not here to announce i've got a job [which i have yet to look for], i'm just here for the usual whatnots. [hahha. sounds like some gossip forum update-ish]

i had a few fun moments for the past two days or i would want to call cheap thrills. [hahhaha. those who have dirty thoughts, tsk on you!]

i was in my dad's boss's car [Saab] because my dad has to send me somewhere.. anyways, that car wasnt that bad man. usually when i'm in a car with my dad, we'll talk about car stuffs. then i asked him what was the function of one of the buttons and he was like "turbo". and he actually demonstrated to me. omg, it was freaking awesome. like... wowwwww. he was already driving at 90kmph but when he pressed that "turbo" thingy it instantly went like 160 -180? i dont know man, too excited to check the metre's reading. [hahhaha] omg larhs. awesome. [speed freak, i know.] but thank god on the next turn he had stopped demonstrating cuz there was like an ROV infront of us.

he told me the other time that he "raced" with a bmw and a mini cooper with his boss's car. [hahhaha] he said the mini cooper wasnt bad. what an ass, i know. but he won larhs, marginally. [hard to believe he lost, cuz i've experienced his "race" driving and riding] but he said halfway back to the office's carpark, the engine died. [HAHHAHA] i think ride with him is scarier. [i know i was praying for my life when he starts to speed, corner, swerve here and there with another bike in btw of lorries] BUT i just loveeeeeeee it.

Yesterday, was randomly fun! i went to Morales place to play ps3! omg AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE. like, his room is worth so much larhs. a 32" lcd tv, scv set up box, ps3, 3.2.1 surround system bla and bla and bla. but seriously... ps3.. AWESOME. esp when everything linked to it is equally awesome! argh! i so want one!

i had a nice day even though i was broke like fuck. had to beg for money along the roadside. [hahha. SHEESH]

i went home, played my broken xbox with my dad and felt so demoralised! [sigh]

didnt plan on coming online tonight but simin called [i think she simply missed me, act want to know bout cupcake frosting, hahhaha] so i went online after completing the co-op game with my dad. [damn fast man, we pros. hahhaha.] and i finally had one serious conversation with simin, ever! [hahhaha.] but she was great. thanks alot babe. but u are cursed with a retribution for always being mean to me. [hehhehe]

lately, i've got not much feelings to pen down, if u noticed. [hahhahhahha. i'm hoping it's a good sign] and i've realised! being broke is good. i have not smoke for almost a week, i haven had much junk food, i havent had much fizzy or alcoholic drinks, all in all, being broke is HEALTHY! [hahhaha. it's a reverse psychology to make me feel better. so shush about laying the facts]

smoke smoke smoke machine.

2007-04-24T01:24:00.000+08:00

all i can say is... being broke sucks! [hahahaha. obviously?]

i feel like i've woken up from a very longggggggg dream. it's freaky and yet it's fun. it's scary and yet it's...... argh i dunno. damn it.

i'm craving for cheesefriessssss. but the tawt of food right now makes me sick. kellie had sent me an effing gross email. pussy turned to dick. [ack!!]

and today, i am here only for a reason. for those who have been asking the reason to why i have yet to find a job, the reason is this - when i wake up, the day seems to have passed. SIMPLE & SWEET! [hahahahaha] i noe, i noe. i have to be more responsible and whatnot. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. whatever. i'll try to find soon! [hahhahha]

as time goes by....

2007-04-22T19:22:00.000+08:00

issit me or the time seems to zoom pass as fast as a race car?

yest was random. very random, i'd say. i received a phone call in the morning, and it was kellie. she had skived work because she had been late for ten minutes and dun wanna be blacklisted so she lied thru her teeth and said she had food poisoning. so today she had off too, thnks to her nice manager. [hahhaha. wad an ass u are] so she came by my hse... and we had no plans.. [yay]

after much of slacking, stoning and pretty much of everything else, we decided to go have dinner! [i mean, we already did decide to have dinner but only decided where] kfc was the calling. i've asked her if she just wanna eat in ysh den go town instead, but we decided to just go town and eat. and reachin town, to our horror, the kfc has been closed!! tht just proved how much i've missed out in life. [bwahhahaha.]

so we ate at the indo place again. had mee bak soh! [not a fan actually, but oh well] and jillian was rushin us because we were supposed to meet her but we took our time. [heh hehh] after dinner, walked all the way to CHIPS [sexbooze&rockNroll!!] to meet jill and her yangzhao aka ganesh. [hahhaha!!] they were already at their second jug. i wanna thank kellie again, for paying most share of the booze. [hahha!] while sipping and enjoying [not really. not a fan of beer] i brought up tht hardrock's havin ladies night. [wooots] so jill and ganesh went over first, causing me and kel to rush drinking our boozeeeee.

went hardrock, and had 4 extra drinks. [in total of mine and kel] but poor kel, she's not a fan of housepour stuffs but too bad for her i guess. i was on the brink of getting high. [ahhaha. weakling] the crowd was dead this time round. the same awesome band was playing, enigma. ganesh left early, leaving only jill, kel and i. we decided to dance like noone's busness. oh! and saw tht eurasian tim guy. tht dude's hair is like so longggggg now. he left soon after too to go to some other pub and get lapdanced, tht's wad he said.

anyways, mum called and she tawt i bluffed her on gg to town. so she was nagging and stuff.. me and jill, broke. had to borrow money for cab. [HAHA, typical] thanks hairil and kellie!!! so we left the two and.. head home!

ok and now i'm hungry!! [grrr] simin's polluting my head with hor fun. [ass] n i seriously think my brother culd be such an ass at times. studied so hard, so high and yet so egoisticly ignorant and whatnot. my poor mum. [tsktsktsk] anyways, i think i shall head out to digging the garbage can for dinner now.

and pame! dun be depressed!! we'll have a badminton match soon ok! to deplete our emo feelings. [bwahhaaha, whatever] or u want pot from tht ah beng dude? [hahahahahaha]

ah chooooooo

2007-04-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

still sick. for like dunno how many days already. urgh.

and i just wanna say hi to my blog.

HI blog!

and ps to those who kept pushing me to get a job, THANK YOU. [hahhaha] but i seriously dunno where to......................

birthday marathon.

2007-04-12T18:24:00.000+08:00

it seems like everyone's having their birthdays, innit? ok. Happy Birthday to Lishan, Bixia and my Mum. all the 12ths... madness. and tmr's Zaidi's birthday. my GOD.

so i'm officially SICK. i dunno if i shld thank pam or my brother. i think both of them are at fault! [hahhaha] my brother especially, everytime he coughs the fan will blow to my direction. [=.=] but i think my immune system is seriously low. nowadays easier for me to get sick. [urgh]

*coughs.

To Pam, dun worry ok. u'll have another shot and u will eventually succeed!

met natalie and her bf and pam on tues for dinner. man, do i love them. without fail they always succeed to crack me up. [plus michelle and lishan, love them too. bwahhahhaa] and thanks Nat again, for tht wonderful treat. and fuck the bloody service crew!

on wednesday, met up with the PRO BADMINTON player called pam for badminton. [duh?] i think we kinda drained our energy from laughing rather than playing. but i managed to beat pam! 2 out of 3 sets. [heh heh] it was kinda exhausting because everytime she scores, i'll score. and everytime i score, she'll score. after getting all pumped up, pam decided tht we shld stop playing. cuz, it was leeching her. [weak larhs. hehh!!] and she needs to rest her body for sth.

and today. i've caught the fucking fever AND my body's aching all over. [double urgh] was supposed to meet Kellie. but as i presumed, she culdnt wake up on time. and guess what? i was right!

ok i dunno what i'm typing already. my head's spinning and spinning and time to eat medicine, cut cake and sleeeeeeep. or maybe not. fucking freezing! [brrr]

23 madness!

2007-04-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

*23 madness.

ok so today, many ppl started texting me belated wishes, still i appreciate it alot. [heh] Joel asked if wanna go watch Meet the robinsons. but i realised they are showing 23! so lucky pick we went to watch The Number, 23 at yishun. Quite interesting. Twist here and there. [i think. hahha] halfway in btw the show, we kinda start calculating ourselves of the possibility of the number 23 to show up. and Joel really got into it. [hahhahha] he was like... "eh the door number! 31 - 8 = 23!" i didnt even realise larhs. tsk.

After the movie... i went to the cold storage and we started seeing this particular number everywhere. [23!!!!!!] madness. the first thing we saw when we exit the cinema and crossed over to northpoint.. this car's plate no. den cold storage... NUMBERS NUMBERS NUMBERS! we saw alot of 23 man.. phone numbers.. even the 853 sign has 23 in it. [heh] so while walkin home.. i noticed more 23!! car plate numbers.. adding and whatnots. i went home to do a lil calculation here and there. take my ic no. plus my date of birth and divide by 2 i get 32! which is opposite to 23! tsktsk. and i realised my house key has 23 engraved on it.. my mailbox key...my unit number.. which is.. 02 -183 = 2-9+3=2+12=23!!! my hair clip... one of the teeth broke so became 2 and 3 which means 23! and i just realised now. [hahhahha] and i checked my phonebook.. it states 149 in use. so u take 14+9 = 23!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but like i was telling joel.. it's all just numbers! [hahha] but i noe for sure that numbers that circulate and revolves ard me the most are the numbers 4 and 8. so. if u think 4's not i nice number... i have 8 to neutralize. [hahha. whatever] like.. for example.. i am born on 08-04-88 at 4-40pm.. in primary skool, my classes are 1-4 all the way to 6-4. fours! [urgh. just to name a few] anyways. took [click on the picture for bigger view]picture tht have 23 on it!

ps : if u take 10-04-2007 add it ALL up. what do you get?? twenty fucking three!!!!!

birthday headaches

2007-04-09T02:42:00.000+08:00

*birthday headaches.

birthdays are like everyday for this month. goodness. i'm officially 19 years 15 hrs and 2 mins old. tht is if i blog fast enough. [HAHHAHA]

i'm just gg to wrap things up about whatever that had took place these past three days.

on friday.
went to Shandy's and her friend, Brett's birthday celebration thingy at Grande Vista. Alot of food man. power. [hahha] and alcohol too! [heh heh] anyhow, while they were popping those party popper and it kinda shot above my eyebrow. [ouch LOR] then they started the cake fight which caused a bump on my forehead. so strike two! i was saving my vodka drink larhs! den while hiding he came and SMASH the cake hardly on my face. i feared for my specs man. sounds like it broke. but thank god, it didnt.

So after washing up and everything we deciedd to leave. i dragged caylynn to go Mac! [heh heh] only to take the bus on the wrong direction. we ended up in the early stages to hougang. [hahhaha. strike three]

i was dead drunk. culdn't tell if it was a road or my bed. [hahhaha! just kidding]

while waiting for the bus....

still waiting.... [at the wrong side of the bus stop]

emo days. [hahha]

on sat.

met up with kellie, marilyn, caylynn and shandy. small and sweet. so the "surprise" didnt seem like a surprise after all. [hahhahahaha] but still much appreciated. went to the ROOFTOP and... it was wet so plans cancelled. anyways, while finding for cay and shandy... could see the candles lit up so brightly. second strike on "surprise". i think the funniest yet scary part was when marilyn decided to open her mouth and fake a story bout someone committing suicide. and SHANDY SCREAMED so loudly, everyone's heart stopped beating for a few seconds. we werent really affected by the story until shandy's SUPER scream. i literally felt my hair stand and heart jumped.

den.. since we cant sit.. decided to go hardrock. ok blablablabla. shandy's friend Brett showed up. kinda ironic how there were three aries and 2 pisces but kellie! sadly u're none of it. [hahha] but if u're a pisces... den it's super ironic already. ok dunno what the fuck i'm sayin. been having frequent headaches. and my phlegm's always bloody. URGH! sun morning was super bloody!

on sun.

went to cousin's wedding and den normal cutting-cake-at-home ceremony. den.. ate a slice and went to slp. woke up... to the smell of instant noodles. [HAHAHHA] okok. headache's getting worst.

@ hardrock

grp photo! [bwahha]

i'm still waiting for a psp do drop from heaven! [HAHHAHHA] been bugging my mum. but she's ignoring me! [in the words of jillian, mothercheeeeeebs]

to all those ppl, you noe who you are, thanks so much for the wishes, presents, love, and everything else i could never have asked for. you guys rock my world. [bwahhahahha so cheesy]

and to those i haven met yet. you are greatly missed!

and to PAME!! take good care of yourself!! rest well and i'll see you soon alright! yishun air indeed is poisoned. [hahhahha]

the stage is yours.

2007-04-05T02:42:00.003+08:00

hello blog. i feel like typing, but i have no goddamn idea what to type about. maybe i shld just continue ranting and ranting on nothingness.
so.. today, i meant yest, helped my bro's gf with her midi thingy which i have no freaking clue on how to work it. but i tried! yay to mua. not yet complete though. it's boring but yet it gets to you.

on MONday, went to marina square with caygay. [so sorry for the phobia] and then off to meet kellie. had a random jam session and it made me starve after cuz almost every shop was closed.
managed to munch on sth while walking back.

and now, i'm still hungry. only had donuts for the day. oreo donuts rock man! yum.

oh well. anyways. i might be gg to the hospital AGAIN to visit my dear cousin. now she's been diagnosed with thyroid gland cancer. tsktsktsk. and she's only 21.

oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANDY!! no longer a TEENager. but still, no worries, u're always young!!! [hehehhe]

ok. officially bored to death. time for another donut.

Jane Doe

2007-03-28T02:44:00.000+08:00

yes! i'm finally done with my adv dip. i'm now unofficially, graduated! yippeee! [not for long].
now i have to wait patiently for my grad proj to be graded. gimme an A! [hahahhahahahaha]

ok. i've decided that i shall start finding for a job. tht's the suckiest thing about graduating! urgh! back to working.. yes money, but tiring. [boooo]

i'll miss skool! still thinking of where to go study next. hmmmmm.

stories.

2007-03-26T03:43:00.000+08:00

hahhha. funny story. i know my blog looks WEIRD. but i had no choice. i accidentally messed up the whole template thingy and i figured i have to get a replacement like asap.

so this is it. i'm still laughing at it. [hahhahhaha]

the thing is, i have presentation later and i have yet to do my slides. so.... i randomly took the skin and just used it instead. [hahhahahahaha]

birds soar high, higher than you.

2007-03-19T02:54:00.000+08:00

i'm soooo pissed that i;m soooo broke.
i cant even buy anything! not even anyhing worth ten cents! ARGH!
i dont know how i gt this broke! dammit motherf**ker.

anywaysssssss, today's marilyn's birthday. i wuld like to WASTE this space here by wishing her a very sweeeeeeet not too old and not too young birthday. happy birthday bimb! [heh] went to hard rock for her small gathering. wanna thank her for the awesome treat! [yippeee]

AARON, KELLIE and ME! at hard rock.
i need more hair to cover my face! peeling too much! becomin dandruff.

Me and Kel went to ubin for our ROMANTIC get-away. it was awesome man. met up with simin after we had our romantic get-away lunch. [muahahahhaha] cycled until every part of my body aches. and i have to admit, i was the weakest link. SIMIN power! [hahhahaa] i think i smoked too much. destroyed my lungs!! [hehhe] like now i realised?
anyways. now i looked like lobster with peeling skin everywhere. like deteorating. or whatever it is. [HEH]

me and kel on our way for our romanticku.

i left my shoe behind!

arrived at the destination!

while waiting for simin! [shades saved kel's face from burnt]

kellie's self-proclaimed prized photography skill

and we're on the way back to mainland on bumboat!

man. it was longer than i tawt it was. it seemed like we cycled so little but the time passed damn fast. only to realise we actually DID cycle alot. [hahhaha]

cant wait for the next one! dragging jillian along!! yayyyyyyyyy!

they see me rollin'....

2007-03-14T02:44:00.000+08:00

so today, i meant yesterday was eng han's birthday chalet thingy, which i dun even rmb until the day itself.

so met up with xin yi. since we culdnt think of what to buy we decided to randomly buy him a bottle of red wine. well, random is good, cuz he loves it. [HAHHA]

didnt stay for long at aloha. culdnt take the ppl who were at the chalet. so so childish and typical bengs. [heh. oops]

went to accompany xy to her campfire which was nearby at pasir ris park.. and den gt my dad to fetch me home! [yay!!] and sent off xy as well. actually it's so much better to ask my dad to fetch me home instead gg public. but the thing is, i have to be home early. [dammit]

but wasnt sooooo bad. only tht recently my knees've been giving me problems again! [effffffff]

Too Much Toilet K-Mouse

2007-03-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

mannnnnnnn. i wonder if i ever will understand if i were to blog in anagram. [hahha] i loveeee anagrams. ok random.

node white yam jet-corp, awesomeeeeeeeee! [figure THT out. hahhhhhhha]

i think i've stared at the comp for more than 24 hrs!
i shave poetry tool tea!!!!!!! urgh.

i feel much better after knowing i've completed. but not assured if everything's on the right track. urgh! [crosses my fingers]

i'll be keeping my fingers crossed for quite some time....

was rushin like mad just so my mum culd help me print before she leaves the office. thnk u for waiting mum! but making my conclusion kinda chapalang man... and i dunno what i might have missed out on. but for the time being, i shall soak myself in bubble bath in... er.. the toilet bowl. i think i'm gg to faint!

*fingers crossed, fingers crossed!

I'mD ueFor AMir acle

What?!

2007-03-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

what the fuck. i've still not yet began with my project larhs. i'm so doomed. the person who will make me calm is xiang! [hahha] i hope she havent start hers yet. [HEH!!] ok. have to switch to hardcore-concentration-on-project, like now.
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Period For Period

2007-03-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

i was whining to jill about my flu. what's worst than having a flu.
well she said period.
WORD.

how irritating is it to have an itchy nose AND throat?
and how smart is it to be eating chocolates?
ok. i think i shall eat ice cream instead.

urghhhhhhhh.

i really had outlined today's to-do list. PROJECT! but [u dont have to guess] i didnt. and now i'm panicking. GREAT.

humdrum days

2007-03-07T03:39:00.000+08:00

is this boring or what? i seriously have no life. nth to even blog about. and i dun even noe what's the point of having one. [hahh]

anyhow, i'm down with THE flu. that's as fucked up as losing my insanity. [second hahh]
i mean seriously, i rather be entirely sick like getting fever than fucking flu. makes my nose all itchy and red like rudolph. dripping like untightened faucet.

I [with the caps] nearlyyyyyy fainted twice, at the petrol kiosk and at home on monday. damn, it was embarrassing. i was paying the bills and i just culdnt take it anymore. so i had to walk with pitch black darkness and no sound. like... a black black world or sth. it was scary. i was perspiring like i've just gotten out of the shower. and today. i'm half sick. what an asswipe.

anyways. met darling pam for dinner [round two for me]. actually i've already eaten at home. but being so nice to her and stuff [n the fact tht i miss talking the usuals with her]. NOW nat's been greatly missed. tht pornstar. michelle's not forgotten too! tht asswipe. [hahh the third]

anyhoos. i'm supposed to start doing my gp but i just aint in the groove for it man.... and supposed to mail him first. [n i didnt] hopefully, it'll be fine. better start the next afternoon.

n somehow i feel the results slip somewhat will be shushing pass somewhere say ard the corner. i just feel the results will be out soon. but i'm hoping [again] FLYING COLOURS! [so cliched, i noe]

oh well. tht's it. i've gt nth else to say. humdrum humdrum. *lifeless.

More Rotting Than Before...

2007-02-15T04:16:00.001+08:00

YES! Finally i'm done with my papers. SOON, i will be graduating! [i know, i know. it's kinda "belated"]

Tht's it. A new step taken, another group of people, a newer new beginning. And Tht's what i call, life.

So right now, i think i'll just rest for awhile. And look for a job or sth. DAMN! tht sucks.

ANYHOOSSS. My whole body's aching. i cant bend down, squat, kneel or whatever tht's related to getting my butt or knees near the ground. IT IS ALL BECAUSE of.... chauffering [more like drag] kellie ard on the skateboard while i cycle. [ok. she chauffered me most of the time, hee hee] BUT still... OW now. Was at her place. [tues] Decided to go ECP by THT means. Everyone looked at us as we passed by. I think we can be heard like a mile away. [HAHHA] well, while crossing the road like tht, the bloddy car honked! [chee bye] but the caucasians were nice enuff to smile at us. some people even said, "cooooooool".

THT was AWESOME. Actually, the reason why we went ecp was to eat in the first place. but after cycling and all the dragging ard... lost appetite! went back to kellie's place. and just soaked ourselves........awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

THEN, followed kellie to PP to shop for her shoes. THEN, went orchard to meet up with her BABY! and "alicia keys''.

So.... LATER [thursday] have to go back to school.. for grad proj meeting. MAN. so fast. and it's freaking 4am now. gawddddddd.

and i'm crossing my fingers i will do superb for my papers. [HAHHAHAHHAHA]

see me smile.

2007-01-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

i am updating my nonexistent blog because i've got nth better to do and have got nth to do! yerps! last resort.. blogging. about what, i dont know! how rad.

so.. yesterday, spent all my last bit of money on i-do-not-know-what. went to this gig at ngee ann. which is quite cool, cuz they have a bar in the school. [woah...] and just to see My Precios play.. i mean u have to pay 8 bucks for the whole thing. but we only came for one band. and it's like paying FOR one band. damn.

den was calculating with kellie.. by the time we reached pasir ris it will be late.. but still we went, in the words of kellie "funfair". so i shld have called pam.. so i can have free ride back home. so i dun feel so pathetically bad for su and shandy. damn, again.

hmm seems like everyone was at pasir ris area. ok. not EVERYONE. but my parents and relatives were, my darling - pam.

so today! i meant sunday. went to meet pam. tht bugger, "drag" me out of my bed to go grocery shopping with her. CAYLYNN! she said you're gonna be part of her grocery tag-along-er too. [hahahahha.] but pam is always so nice, cant say no to tht mo'fo. [HAHAHAHA]
and i miss the rest too!

so now, i've gt no money left. how awesome. DAMN, the bloody freaking third time.

2 double O 7

2007-01-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

wow. alot of things had happened in such a short time. people come and go without even me realising it myself.. well. the gayest news is in. my parents had gotten married on last thurs. GAY GAY GAY. thnk god it's just the court kinda marriage. no celebrations and stuffs. how embarrassing. now that my dad is back, i am restricted in so many ways. dang.

oh swell, cant do much about it. kellie has influenced me so much of beer man. darn. but i still prefer liquor heh heh. some people come in to my life and went mia-ing the very next min. goodness. tht's like..... okaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

ok larhs. dunnno wad to blog... figures the not so frequent updates.

new year resolution?? seriously... haven tawt about it yet.. sigh.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! 2007 will be awesome!

Drink Drank Drunk!

2006-12-16T13:42:00.000+08:00

Weeee. Had gathering with the lovely hippo, cheapo, pornstar and BIshan, yesterday. In commemoration to nat's birthday. [no worries. i'm not meaning it like she's dead]

came late... sorry babes!

Dinner at fish&co. blablablaaaaaaaaaaaa den off to The Indian Kitchen [say it in the indian accent!] waived off the 25 bucks entry fee. [weeee] i think nat shld stop flirting wth every guy tht's... THERE.

michelle was high on clarke quay and nat was high on taking photos. [tsk!]

so... had wine, had beer, had sheeeeeeeeeeeesha. it was practically a bollywood night... all the songs... and all the people.. with funky smell. [heh. no offence] but they were playin punjabi mc! [hahahhahaha!!]

i think everyone gt a LIL bit high. [just a little] maybe not for shan! [hahhaha!]

had to go off early again cuz f***ing dad was making a f***ing fuss out of it. annoying.

asked BIshan if she wanted to puke she said no, she's fine. den.... out of a sudden she just puked. thnk god it's not IN the cab.. and thnk goodness the uncle compensate only 3 dollars for it.

ANDDDDDD everyone reached home safely. thnk god when i reached home ard 2 plus my mum was the only one waiting up for me and bro's not home yet! so.... tht's good, in a way.. argh. whatever tht means. [heh] my head was getting heavier and heavier, so i just slept on it. and TA-DA! woke up today sharing this story to myself! [yayyyy =.=]

ok. tht's the end!

PS : caygay, sorry i couldnt be at DXO with u tonight!!

need a smoke! f***

Post Me A Letter

2006-12-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

UH OHHHHHHHHHHH. i was high. AGAIN. now i have to make my thank list, AGAIN.

thnk u KELLIE! thnk u CAYLYNN! thnk u JOSEPH! and the rest of the ppl.. like.. joel, natasha,anita,raj,blablablablaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. haha

and MEH MEH! u die. hahahahahahha!

thnks to meh meh for comin up to me CONSISTENLY [drink, drink, drink!] with experimented drinks. SHEESH

Moleft wasnt tht bad either.

and the dancefloor was small but pretty alright.

i have bruises on my knees and my calves hurt!! must be from fallin too much. AH HAH.
well here's a picture or two.

MOLEFT! [we all have a MOLE on the LEFT arm.]

HIGHHHHHHHHHHH. [cant really recall until i saw the pic]

all wiped out. [me] with the help of Kellie and MEH MEH! [melvin, the culprit]

till then!

The Puff That Cuffed.

2006-11-25T00:25:00.000+08:00

one gone, many more came! merrier merrier...!

I want to be early again cuz i'm never.
I want to be social and i hope i culd.
I want to be happy and i better be!

It's gg to be tough but i'm gg to have to try. Change for the better...!

Life for me will change if he ever comes back. No more nite outings. [SIGH]
So unfair yet so fair. [whyyyy]

OK. so Hw do i say.. how do i tell.. how shld i begin.. [help! i need somebody]

Uncle Colin [oh no. SIRE LORD MAJESTY Colin i meant] is awesome. Transfort fee saviour. [hahahah.]
Dinner with them also AWESOME.

Everything is AWESOME rite now. New guys to GAWK at.

And since i'm surrounded by ppl who can or soon to drive, i want to drive too! bahhhhhhhh.
I need a job. but how, when i dun even bother hunting for one? [gahhhhh]

Few people has changed. They're different now. But Whatever. Couldnt be bothered! I'm Happy! [i think] Suddenly i feel so happy and i dun noe why! so hyper! woooooooooooooooo!

ok. gg nuts here.

OH OH! more people turning gayer and gayer. [i dun think i'm one of them] - [but even if i am, den... so what!] hahahaha. ok really gg nuts. ARGH!

ok not so hyper now. boooooooooo.

I Gazed At The Twinkling Light

2006-11-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

~~Sometimes i lie awake thinking if i am invisible. Am i? Sigh. What a wonderful world ahead of me, i see it. But i'm not included in it. now tht sucks.~~

screw Tht.

I wonder why certain people popped up in my life.. it culd get real annoying too.. when they dun noe they're bein treated nice-r than they shld be. Even though i hate everyone, i still appreciate them in many ways. Cuz they're the ones tht either make me or break me. n now they're all like.. POOF!

I think it's funny, tht people think they noe me but the truth is they dun. I noe it's my fault for living in pretense but people need to learn tht they shldnt believe in whatever others tell them. Just like i would love to believe ur life's so crapped up but still u have a home.

But i do believe tht no two person face the same problems in life. Everyone is different. so live with it and dun start blabbering tht i wont understand what ur effing life is all about. DUH. Like dudesssssssss and dudettessssss if u noe like others wun understand u, why bother wasting ur breath gg on and on about how pathetic and miserable they are.

ok to think about it.. now it feels really annoying and irritating thinking about those people. urgh.

I think i just have to let ppl, whoever IS reading tht.. everyday i have a different ME. so right now.. i'm the fed-up, annoyed and care-less ME! so bug off.

ps: Adalia Jillian Frances [i had to say ur full name cuz u're such a TOOT, not like u're reading anyways. HEH] had her fun! boohoo! u byotch! hahhahahha!

Shifting Blades

2006-11-09T05:25:00.000+08:00

First and foremost i'd like to say i have not been online for like ancient! goodness.. The connection i'm using from? doesnt like me anymore. :C i've gone MIA!

Like how i've been tattling to Marilyn, yes i'm back from Bahamas!! if u guys didnt noe, i was on an imaginary trip. Bahamas was great and everything and next stop is Bermuda Triangle. [wad a joke. HA HA HA]

OKOK honestly i've been busy studying. yes, u've gt me right. STUDYING. ohh wait i forgot "studying". have been gg all the way to changi airport, supposedly to study. i shan't go any further into details cuz it's obvious when i said "studying". [i'm like repeating the word - studying - ANNOYING]

So Ian i've checked out ur blog. one word - awesome [heh]
And Marilyn, i've checked urs too. same ol' same ol' but better. Only tht ur font is gg to make me blind.

Mum isnt too pleased with me lately. [or has it been, always?] anyhoos who wuldnt, when i'm home only close to midnight. my bad. Sorry mum. and i'll kill Dad for you. Bastard. =)

Finally i had dinner with the lovely bitches. Still the same ol' them. Awesome. [kinda backdated]

I, for once wanna noe, Does smoking affects ur memory?! cuz my memory is sure.. bad recently. If u asked me to repeat wad i'd said in the past 3 mins, i wuldnt and culdnt possiby rmb. and tht's DAMN bad. think it's karma or retribution or whatever u call it. [for saying kellie's memory's bad]

And why does it seemed like there's nth for me to blog when there's actually alot? i'm getting weirder and weirder as time passes by. urgh.

OOOOOOOOH. and it's been quite awhile since i've last gone home with my darling, pam. DARLING, DARLING! when it's back to normal skool days, i'll call u up!

And i do not know if i cant wait to have the newest episode of.... [what show was it tht my bro's gf was burning for me....? hmm] i think it's oc. urgh. i cant rmb!!!! great.

so lately, i've stopped thinking about life. which makes me stop being suicidal. [for now] [oh. and i'm not self-suicidal, whatever tht's supposed to mean]

and it seems like i'm gg on and on and on, gibberish, yakidee-yakidee-yak about nothing but utter nonsense.

Goodness gracious me.. it's 6 am in the morning! mum's gonna scream her head off! [den it'll be scary. having a headless mum]
And i think i'm taking too long to post. Before My connection goes awry i better make a move.

With these few words below, i marked my exit.

with every puff
it seemed to cuff
like golden shackles
around the ankles

*toodles!

party crashers

2006-10-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

i wanna thank HELEN for inviting me to her birthday and allowing my frens to crash there too. but i wanna say i'm sorry i didnt join your "party". instead we had our own little small party at the back. hahahaha. but Helen thnks for the food, DRINKS and welcomeness.
i see sparks. i see old friends. i see a new me. i see ppl fucking at the bench a few feet from ours. i see joy and i see awesomeness.

Thanks to the great frens. and HELEN! happy birthday again! now all legal! but still too cheenah! change change change! [heh.]

It was all so awesome. although i was hoping i wuld get high but i sadly didnt cuz the vodka reminds me of cough syrup or some antibiotic syrup. [argh! sadly!!] kellie gt high!!!!!!

and how come i didnt noe A-jillian-F was at ecp too?! n.b.c.b! if not more more awesomeness!!!

say i say

2006-10-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

why. why is everything so tough towards me. i know life is unexceptionnally easy but why issit always me!? waikiki goo goo gaga!!!!!! sheesh....... swirly swirlyyyyyyy. I was on the verge to kill myself, hahhahaha. sometimes. but how suicidal i may get i wun resort to killing me. i'll let others do it. bwahahahaha so.. any volunteers?

STARsss

2006-10-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

it feels like ancient since i've been to this "new entry" page.
just so everybody noes [tht is if ppl read this blog], i'm still alive!! [heh]

actually nothing much to say.. no, alot. BUT too lazy to type.
fasting month yea? YAY hari raya soon.. not like i'm all enthu about it.

aiya. lazy blog. next time den! oh yea. check out my www.sk8punkgerl.multiply.com ! see all of our whacky videos. i mean.. they are to me.. so.. hmmm. oh well..

yellow, blue.. channel...... and die of heartattack

2006-09-06T19:28:00.000+08:00

so skool has officially become videotaking session. with nth but briliant lameness, u can actually come up with a masterpiece. things get spiced up with the different mixture of those chemical blooded creatures [humans].
one tht is sooooooo linguistic tht she can pass off even not knowing what the fuck she's saying. probably nonsense. british, aussie, jap, thai, malay, u name it! she'll speak. who's always singing. not forgetting equipped with bladder problems.

one tht's like a barney one day, banana in the pajamas next, pink panther, care bear... and the list goes on. she's the "british" one. the linguist opposition party. [whatver tht's supposed to mean]

there's also the lord of excuses. she has so many reasons beyond any1's capability. [no1 culd actually think of the excuses she used to be reasons.]

and den there's the second mia one. who's always overslept. short yet denies.

and there's the other, who's a morning person and has a very strong willpower to say "no" to a second stick.

and there's the other who's always about electrico, saw loser, ntd... and blablabla. the videographer. and also being infected by the linguist, she's having bladder problems too.

and den there's me! god-knows-what. u can find ME gg ard saying, "sampoerna for thoughts?"

Lastly, jailani.... i have no comment.

blog blog blog blog blog.

2006-09-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

after days of hardwork [heh!] and lazyness, i have finally sufficed [whatever tht means]. Yes, skool is still skool. Certainly no puns to it. But lecturers culd defintely spice them up a little. [not all]

this week has definitely been a reunion week for me. For both secondary and mdis frens. Sure, it has been a week of lots of laughs. Thursday met up with the secondary people. and i missed a double lesson........ went bowling [ok i suck]. nono. went to watch The Devil Wears Prada first with A-Jill-F. [not a bad movie, i must say] THEN, went to bowl. And cartel dinner for them. And Bixia, dun cry. [thnks for ur concern] So on the way back with Helen and Xin Yi, we had a little of the "pussy" drinks [hahhaha]. Talk and talk and talkk, tht's the end of thursday and here comes FRIDAY! caught myself a flu. went to class late. [typical] AND here comes SATURDAY!

so yesterday, was stucked with great ol' pamela. [hippo] Went to comex with her and shan. Hippo shopped alot! [hahhahahah] so after comex was meet and greet session [heh] with nat and mich, who were waiting "patiently" at cartel [yes, i noe! AGAIN!] so we had this "HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE" set. [u have no idea] and marilyn came ard. and the next second she went off. so this "HUGE" set was gone within 5 mins. [hahhahah. it is THT huge]. soooooooooo. everyone went back to their late nite plans, leaving me and hippo all alone. [tsk] Till, kellie called. SO [yes, i emphasized on alot of so] hippo kinda came equipped, with her poker cards and her newly bought ipod speaker. we went to the esplanade rooftop with our equipments and not forgettin the "pussy" drinks, waited for kellie, melvin and gang to arrive with their beers. [hahahah] the mats were sitting closer and closer just because we have MUSIC! [hahahaha]. smoke drink smoke drink. den pam went off with "the bf" leaving the four of us behind. AND here comes FRAN! oooookay. so i HAD to barf. i'm a lousy drinker. [true. true. sad case].. and i reached home sweet home after another round of belching and puking. [HAHAHA!]

the world in another view...

2006-08-13T10:28:00.000+08:00

Wow. I'm back, to blog. [Hahhh] Not to say there's anything exciting. But all, so very sad and miserable. Yes, many things had come and go, just like the people in my life. To my beloved granddad, u will always be in my loving memory. Right now, I can feel ur presence is a miss as I'm sitting at ur very own room.

So I was high and barfed a lot on friday. But I felt much gratitude to the two of them, Marilyn and Ian. [Told u guys I cant take much alcohol content. I said "more sprite!" hahha] If it weren't for them, I wuld be slping on the very grass of "esplanade" or even better the corridor to the toilet of esplanade. [Hahha. Yes, of course I felt like an idiot and WAS an idiot] Everyone was looking… So annoying……… but the fireworks wasn't any great either. Just very bland and normal… well I figured. I felt damn hippie for a moment… sitting in a huge open field… the only thing tht was a miss is weed, marijuana and whatnot. But I guess sampoerna is good enuff, innit? [Hehh]

Much thnks to Marilyn and Ian for lending me ur laps for me to slp, ur time wasted and patience, waiting for me [cuz I kept saying "gimme 5 more mins" which in time turned 1 hr +++], ur support for trying to make me walk straight, to Marilyn for the trouble u have to carry my stuffs, to Ian for piggybacking me [although u kinda sucked, even Marilyn's better at it, still, much cherished] and ur kindnesses was much much appreciated. And I NOE I talked a lot of crap. [Hahaha. Well who wuldnt?] – This feels like I'm taking a Grammy award or sth. With all the "thnks". [Hahhahha]

I do not think tht this year is a great year for me. 3 people left me. [Well, literally.] My dad, who rather leave his family behind with so much burden for us to weigh. [Fuck u bitch] My aunt, whom passed away in May. My granddad, who very recently passed. It's been a very busy week for me. Ever since he left this world, I was running here and there preparing for the funeral and prayers, accompanying my aunt so she wuldnt be alone… friday has been my last day of work… back to skool tmr. So excited yet too exhausted. And I'm back here in my aunt's place… I think my daily routine will change from now. For better or for worst, I do not noe. I think it'll be… gg to my aunt's place at nite… waking up in the morning to go back to my place [I hope I culd jog home, so it will do me good, hehh] and den to skool… if I have a job… den I wuld just have to fit it in my scheduled routine…and den back to repeat the cycle again…

Well.. Time to make the cycle happen! ........

hot hot hot hot hot.

2006-07-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

let's just do a recap of friday... saturday and sunday. [just so i can put my brain to some serious work]

FRIDAY
After work, met up with ian and marilyn.. someone's in the mood to study alright. so we watched the acoustic set. not bad, not bad. and dennnnnnn walk all the way back to lau pa sat. [it's so retarded.. when they can just actually come and meet me THERE] well i guess tht's becoming a routine to be walking frm esplanade to lau pa sat. good in a way.. it'll burn off some carbs. [i hope] heh. so walk all the wayyyyyyyyyyyy to eat....... CUP NOODLES! how cool is tht?!

SAT
Went to national library to visit a good mo'fo, waynie. [hee hee] she and her entrepreneurrrrrship. selling candiessssssssss. tsk. toothache! anyways. she rocks. cus FREE DRINK! yay. wanieeeeee. LONG JOHN!! YOUR treat ok.
Then, off to heeren to meet up with marilyn [again].
And managed to catch Faidhi's band playing. not bad, not bad.
so.. off to shoby ghaut [walk] to substation [more walking, YAYness].
went to catch undergrd gig, to support My Precious [marilyn's starbucks manager's band, i think] i swear i was out of placed. all headbangers, metalheads and whatever else. satan worshipper or some sort. [hahaha] i think the music was either headache-y or orgasmic larhs. superb moshing and body surfing. [now we're talking bout some real stuffs] me and marilyn tried to though. but everytime i pushed marilyn she shrieked? [hahaha. hilarious can?] n i culdnt have been more wrong than to say the place MUST be spiritual as well. so many orbs are visible when u take pictures. [scary.. to think of it] so.. after tht... went to lau pa sat AGAIN! walk... AGAIN! [i really hope it do me benefit] with marilyn, starbucks ppl + two members of K.O.K [HAHA] [kate of kale]............ how ironic is this.. FOOD POLITIC. wan to eat oso have politics.. satay first then can order sth else. tsktsk. singapore venders. took last train home and tht's the end of sat! nono.. den went home talked on the phone till i fell aslp. dunno wad time they actually hung up. 6am i think. HAHA. i culd only last till... 5. woke up at 7 and look at my phone.. "eh.. no more participants."

ps ; was supposed to meet ian. SORRY!

SUNDAY
was supposed to have jamming.. but my poor poor marilyn fell sick. [n bein so stubborn, insisting on not gg to the docs] must be the coke and cockles she had the nite before. [get well soon!] so met up with A-JILL-F! wad to do... ppl stay two blks away. off to wheelock to catch her brother's band.. but missed it.. cuz i was "deely - daly-ing". so went to far east to catch her fren's band. anddddddddd we saw HOT HOT HOT HOT skaterboy! topless with nice abs. well defined body. nice facial features. strong chiselled jawline. wearin cap to cover his eyes. [so mysterious!] so hotttt!! omg. drool. [jillian.. stick with ur one at aussieland] so we were gawking like nobody's business. he was.. standing infrnt of us. and i opened my trap and said HIIIII. and pretended to be lookin at the sky when he turned. hahah. so dumb. did alot of walking. alot alot alot. thnks to A-Jill-F. n thnks to her for long john's treat! yay. u rock! so... went home. with aches everywhere. YAY!

mosh! body surf! mosh!

2006-07-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

**for the blinds.. i've made the font HUGE.**

let's just say the moshing and body surfing were tad pathetic. it's a fucking gig n nonono.. u arent allowed to do tht. but kudos to those typicals who did anyways. only to be dumb enuff to mosh and surf to the securities and got pulled out soon after.

yes. millions of typicals tht culd drive me nuts. mats & minahs = stripes , checks. ah bengs = u see sly, u see them+some iron maiden rocker wannabe. posers = emo hairs, emo dressings, emo everywhere. OMG la.

so the three nites had been a short yet long weekend.. i tawt. [i love calerway! wooo] n marilyn. still waiting for the darn picture. hahaha. guess everyone's back to their busy life, innit?

saw alicia.. was hoping she wouldnt approached me so she wuldnt see me doin.. wadever i'm doin.. cuz she has been so against it all the while. sigh. but she approached! darn.

had lots of good laughs.. if i rmb correctly. i culd only rmb one very very funny scene, though. we were at mac, [mar,ian,diana (if i rmb her name correctly) n me] were havin dinner, with tht two other anticipating to see electrico perform.. [-.-] so we were having dinner rite... Ian bein the typical ian randomly called out to this guy whom walked past our table n he went like...:
Ian: "eh. u r... ur brother's stephanie rite. i mean sister"
Stranger: "eh.. ya. my brother"
Ian: [chuckling, laughin, controllin waiting to burst] "eh??? ur sister rite"
Stranger: "no. brother. u are?"
Ian: "tell ur brother, stephanie, ian."
Stranger: [laughin] "ah okok."

haha. which guy in the world is named stephanie!?!? i wanna noe so badly pls.

A-JILL-F joined shortly after. yay u rock. for no reason. [oh. cuz u're sick] so with her ard there's always.... yea those who knew her noe wad i meant. gg ard doin "stripes" with our fingers rite to the faces of those stripe-R. this sorta event is gd.. u noe why? cuz u'll meet so many familiar faces. n frens of frens. very gd for anti socials.. boost ur social skills.

Ummairah. u better stop eating. just look at one of the photo u took out of random. ur forehead is smaller than ur cheeks. ur face looks like a pulp, swelling. argh!! omgomgomg. everyone's turnin skinnier n i'm becomin fatter.

time to hit the sack.. fucking nightmares last nite made me lose my beauty slp. and now everywhere there're scratch marks cuz everywhere there's an itch. urgh! n fucking tired.

ps: i think i shld let ppl noe me better tht.. i HATE false hopes, positive assurance, empty promises, so on and so forth. cannot, say cannot dun yaya papaya say can. i get ticked off easily with these. YUNJIN! [see, make me say ur cool chi name] u r oso included ah. say can wake up, can, can, can. den wad happen? missed egan's mini gig. but u still rocks, love! awwwww. hahahaha.

squeeze me tight, till i bleed from my nose.

2006-07-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

i dunno wads with the pattern of coming to blogspot and once clicked, forgot wad u'd wanted to type.

i dun believe i have friends. but i do have one special "fren".
and tht is my conscience. the one tht has been keeping me company 24/7 since the day i culd actually consciously think. call me a schizo. nope, i dun think tht's schizophrenia. tht's just.. interaction within oneself, yes? but when i was young i remembered tht i visualised them.. one to be fat and the other skinny. [yea. TWO??] den they wuld be quarelling [not really..] more like disagreeing. [wow. my mind culd actually do tht. splitting it and disagree-ing with itself] so next time if u ever encounter an incident whereby i'm talking to myself? it just means tht i'm most probably predicting wad might happen later on or simply analysing [everything] with my "buddy".

this sounds sick. but i guess it's just me. sick in the brain.

take me for granted, PLS.

2006-07-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

why. why does it happen all the time? everytime i'm so.. so very happy to blog, there's sure to be sth fucked up. ok rite now at this very moment i feel like fleeing from home. urgh. [culd u be an angel and pass me a fag] so my plans of not buying fags will definitely not be followed up. there's not even one day of white flag at home. EVERYDAY. i wonder how long more i can actually withstand all these.

anyways. life has been such a bitch as per usual. no pun indeed. BUT it's not gonna stop me from blogging nonsense. [oh wait. i am already on it] teddy geiger rocks. yes, he's playing now. not to mention i lurve his hair. [yes. i have a weird fetish over guy's hairs. HAHAHA]

i definitely have to say "weekend" [thurs to sun] were one of the days tht i actually laughed alot after not having much "laughing" these few mths. bollocks i say. but true, i'm only laughing on the outside. such pretense i have. ~~i dun wan to have to breakdown every single nite like how i used to. i'll feel so much better at tht moment of breakdown but i will eventually feel like pathetic load of crap the very next day.~~ i'm confused. thnks to my awesome ass kicking friends i have. they're so full of nonsense yet they're the greatest, in a way or another. [i guess. or have i been wrong ALL these while?]

and i'm speaking more like yoda, yes? hahaha. [uncertified]
[yoda-mairah] - yoda i speak like, yes?

so most of us had an equal share of LAUGH-AT-MOMENT yesterday. Ian got his, first. "will Mr. Ian-Michael Rozario pls report at the control station" or sth like tht. ok i'm still laughing at tht. kooch came up with the idea of actually telling the guy tht we're looking for a small boy. but the funniest part.. seeing ian's face expression. HAHAHA. funny shit. my share was mean.. they were laughing at me cuz i culdnt take milk. -rolls eyes- marilyn is with her MOUTH PIECE! whaahahahhhaah. another funny one. and someone's ignoring me today. sigh.

oh ya. i havent blog bout this wealth management thingy. i like it here better. so much more slacked but somehow i liked the fish market environment i used to be in. and my job? laughing at ppl's weird names and photo ids. [cuz i tawt mine was bad. and i'm not the only one with a weird name.] their name are so un unique and FUNNY. yes i'm mean. but everyone had gone thru the phase of making fun of me.. so now's my turn.

n i'm so much more happy tht i can tune in to the radio here.. so i wun be slpy. class 95. where all the songs i havent heard for ages are being aired.

baybeats! rock balls.

everyone loves me!!!!!!! NOT

2006-07-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

my ipod is screwed. think sth wrong with the fuking battery. yes. the battery FUCKs. well everytime the cable is inserted... and.............

so anyways. today, while on the way home, back frm town to get free fags.. [in train, miserable without listening to some blasting music] i saw someone very very familiar. and it turned out to be NAT! [my one and only, the pornstar] we were so close to each other but just tht too involved in our own world to realise we were actually "beside". only came to realise when the train was at bishan. [probably i noticed her thru her blasting techno. HAHAA. okok. not techno.] so..... we [ok I..] decided to have dinner. since it's been a long long time since we last caught up. u short tongue-d! poor thing. too much french kissing larhs! hahaha or maybe it was sth else aye? heh. it was quite alright. nonsense as usual. although we're missing some kakis. so we had... SWENS!

ok tht's it i guess. too lazy too type already.

-1 mth n a week.. 5 weeks.. 35 days. 25 business days.. [n counting] to hopefully finish WORK! i better pray 25 days are like faster than a speeding bullet.

life's a bitch, dun u ALL just have to agree.

2006-07-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

a lil fren [not really little] did a research on my race [awww so sweet]. ok guess wad. i'm semi nomadic. [well....] i have these many many tribesss. [i'm tribal now].. ard the areas of afghanistan and pakistan [wow. i'm an afghan. or pakistani] i'm linked to the tali*** [ok not like i noe them. or one of them, in case i get caught and sent behind bars for having the same race =.=... just so we're clear] or.. i culd be known as Pashtun, Pushtun, Pakhtun, Persian, Urdu, Pathan or ethnic Afghans [i dunno if it's a wow.] n i'm also supposedly to be ethno-linguistic. [ok tht's a WOW] my supposedly language is known as pashto [weird] and the total population of pashtun ppl are more than 40 million. [am i seriously linked?] i culd be an islam, jews or atheist. [heh. how RAD]

OR. i just found out sth intersting. PATHAN culd mean..
1. In slang terms it refers to a hard headed person, or someone stupid.
e.g Man you are acting like a complete Pathan today. Forget to take your pills?

2.Also refered to Homosexual tendencies.
e.g Are you being a Pathan?

hahaha! my race cracked me up. ok enuff said. whoever read these.. i hope it solves whatever questions u've been asking about my race. HAHHAHAHA. just for the benefit-of-a-doubt. i kinda educate myself today. YAY?! =.=

or u wan some pathan jokes tht really make us pathanssss looked dumb [ok. it actually culd be referred to other race la. i'm so offended. HAHAHHAHHAHAHAAHA]
go to http://www.paklinks.com/gs/showthread.php?t=100085

what does a random mind says? "fuck off"

2006-06-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

yes i'm sick and the whole world's as pathetic.

why issit so hard to achieve sth. why must there always be THE first.
why issit so hard to accept. why must there always be be negativity.

ok honestly. i dunno wad's my point here.

*coughs
urgh. i so goddamn hate being a push over. ppl might not noe, but u will noe urself best, wun u? u're being taken for granted. only wanted when u're needed.
every interests i have in me seems to die off.. for now. [hopefully]
i solely believe in loner-ism.

and this annoys me most ; placing ur listening ears to some1 else's fucking sad tragedy but vice versa wise.. it's like asking and hoping gold bars would grow out of the trees.

so anyways. enuff said of random brooding-ness, pass few days had been a blast or so... [not like there's really anything exciting]
so tmr or say later.. [30th june] was supposedly to be my last day of work. guess how thrilled n psyched i was. being able to bum ard. back to being fit [fat lard i am now.]. but i guess tht culd nv happen becuz the other dept kinda need help so i'm being transferred over to the Wealth Management. [dude. i cant even manage and plan my mthly finance] bummer. so it's back to socialising - step 1. kinda sucky i must say.. cuz i hate socialising. [heh!] i'll probably get a nervous panic or worst, breakdown. [wow. tht serious].

so where have all my frens gone to? dead i supposed. n i'm coughing non stop till my brain juice is spewing and my head is swelling. woo n i have free passes to catch superman later too. i was kinda thinking whom to ask along.. but decided a min after the news tht whoever call me within the next 5 mins out of "nature" will go with me. heh.

ok i think i'll just have to learn to shut up.

u noe wad. iron maiden's guitarist is my fren's bro's fren.

2006-06-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

sigh. ok my whole body is gg to crumble into pieces, i swear. think yest had lack of slp. thnks to marilyn. [yes. u're part of my story again]

okok so here's a quickie [sounds like i'm gg to fag or piss]
i'm kinda in a tiff with mum lately. ok. i culd see myself.. in the grounds of "parental" suspension. so she thinks the reason why i always go to work late is a scheme to come home lateR. which is.. not true i guess. heh.

so, typical marilyn wans to have dinner at LAU PA TAT [lau pasat]. too bad i'm broke. so we had... stingray and... black pepper squid.. [issit?] hah. dunno wadssup with her. cuz we had stingray AND squid too at newton just last week. [oh my..] prata nxt.

so anyways. typical impulsive marilyn decided to come by my hse.. JACK ASS! ok i have to apologise for most of the corrupted disc. dunno wads wrong with it. used to be fine. DAWN OF THE DEAD! and SKOOL OF ROCK. so.. watch watch watch.. time read as 4.30+A.M.ante meridiem [A.M.]. u shld have just slpt over la. save ur cab fare. so because of THIS, i'm now very very slpy. cuz i slpet at 5 woke up at 7.

so today i'm supposed to do my favor by dropping by starbucks. but i didnt cuz my phone batt was flat. damn sad. must have been becuz talk to so many ppl on the line today esp ian. sheesh. annoying.

ok so anyways my eyes are deceiving my mind. AND come to ngee ann poly thingy. nice. at 2 this sat. pay 2 pr hr. bucks, wee

bloodshot, empty stomach, misery.

2006-06-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

ok. so i said i was gg to self ground myself. seems like tht didnt happen for today. actually it wasnt so bad larhs. i told mum i'll be back by 9.. but.. close to 11 instead. ok my bad. so she had the right to yell at me. but yell nicer ones for once i hope. but.. nope. not gonna come true either. hahahaa

thnks for the sotb. but i'm fucking starved. so now i feel like puking. omgnesss... i think i shld let the bed bugs salvage me soon before i actually puke. n my eyes are like RED.. yay-ness =.=

so this was the event. went to meet unknown n fren.to harry's.blablabla.to speacialist.starbucks.marilyn[my second love, so nice of her to actually "gave" me a bagel when i ask].created noise pollution.just like the uncivilised barbarians i always dissed, i've turned into one[for the moment].sorry for the disturbance.went home.still starving.no food cuz of the war i didnt fail to suppress earlier on.sigh.the end.

ukelele

2006-06-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

what i hate about blogging is when u blogged halfway and everything just disappears.
and was typing halfway when dear cousin decided to pop a conversation.. there i go, having to tell my pathetically sob life story.

as cliche as this might sound.. life IS unfair.

enuff of tht. so saturday was good AND bad. to start off the day. flocked over to marilyn's place. [yerps. FLOCKED =.= wad a word]. i was putting down her confidence in her oufit cuz i was wearing an oversized tee [which she gt for me. so sweet yet so big] but den again i wuld like to apologise for the sulky mood. felt kinda shitty. how was the silent treatment? bet it was good. HAHA. no machine gun [courtesy of russell for calling me tht]

so headed off to fort canning to catch matin's band perform in rock d'fort. it's a not a bad gig overall. [ok cant really judge cuz we only caught 3 acts] we kinda snuck in as well. which is kinda cool cuz u actually have to pay 10 bucks for it. HAHAHA. shld have asked nat along. den she culd groove to some sweet old skool rock and roll [rock tigers!] or maybe funk..

then... off to town. i really think i shld have gone home. mum was right. no money better not roam the earth. HAH. wad nonsense was tht. what i meant to say is.. no money = stay home. so anyhow... caught silent hill with mar and russell. so while queuing up to get some pop corns. mats being the NORMAL annoying mats basically just a pain in the ARSE. [bah.. ] took a cab home... cab fare was 31 bucks. OMG la. lucky there were the both of them to sponsor me moolahs. i actually tawt i had to slp by the streets of orchard. [which is kinda cool for those whose dreams had been wanting to stay in orchard district. guess the streets are exquisite enuff haha.] reached home exactly 2 am. mum was like.. u dun reach by 2 u'r dead. and TA-DA! 2 am sharp i entered my sanctuary. n there goes my "night" outings [not like i really have one.. but still i can kiss gdbye to it]

yes! and no doubt tht the next weekend will be a pretty healthy one with no fag cuz i'm broke. anticipating. 40 more days to end of work. i THINK. mum might have gt me a lobang to work at some ritzy golf "boutique" like wth. golf, the least likeable sport. but as long as it can make me earn my income WHY NOT!? hahahaha

OH and it was father's day. i didnt even rmb. HAHA. not much of a significant aye. my house has turned its ground into a battlefield. everyone's ignoring everyone else. only den my mum decided to talk to me. so.. they received silent treatment as well. how i miss giving silent treatments. hahaha. n how hurt u'll feel when ur own mum will call u a slut. n how long i havent cried myself to slp. [quite gd actually. cuz when u cry u tend to fall aslp faster]

argh! i need to get my eyes check asap. i'm getting BLIND. i even stop the wrong bus. AHAHA. and pretended like i didnt flag for it. this is probably worsen due to staring into the screen from work to home. BAD. [kids, dun ever do tht.] save ur eyesight. LOOK more at green objects! tree leaves! not the brown ones pls. hah.

hah. i culd actually write a novel about a day's event. but i bet it's gg to be boring. so i'll just let it be a composition. :)

randomness

2006-06-16T02:14:00.000+08:00

went to work. late [as usual]. went to bank in $3m+++. [woah]. end of work. met marilyn. gave me a shirt [thnks!]. went to Wake Me Up Studio. Slack. Jammed for free. TALK. met up with Wan. went newton. eat. stingray and squids. sat. chilled. joked. walked back to mrt station. gt a "kiss" frm Mar. [still owing two] went up the overhead bridge. Mar made me looked n sounded like an idiot. have to say "banana" for a gazillion times. den to orange. made my hair stand. so dark n creepy. some1 gt raped there b4. [tsk] went back home. BOMB. had enuff of wedgy. [haha!] online. hear lightning see thunder [hahaha!!! sec skool days] raining soon. [yay! hopefully] blogged. work soon. FRIDAY! off to bed.

Note: read in monotone-ly like a robot.

brokeback.. MY BACK BROKE

2006-06-12T01:56:00.000+08:00

so i've been sitting down here thinking wad i shld blog. but it seems tht my mind isnt responding to the slightest feat [ok wadeva tht means.. THT is wad my mind's producing. non relative words] so i was quite on hoping tht sth rad might churn out as i type these nothingness. [well.. tht's usually the case]

i think i need more than a day's rest. my whole body just feel ready to collapse at a split nano second.

since it now reads MONDAY, the mood just swell. cuz it's monday bluessss.. i think it's quite a pity tht blue is actually associated with such boring-ness. i wonder wad colur does randomness represent. cuz i'm feeling kinda random now. does this look random or simply of not making much sense?

so it has been a rainy season these past few weeks isnt it? ok la. i'm gg to stop. wad nonsense am i talking..

oh no wait. i wanna say BIG HUG TO NAT for turning up. yay u rock. n thnks to THE UNKNOWN too. yes. it's a pretty drama one.. esp.. u-noe-whom. whaahaha. n nat better send me the video ah. LOL. ok i noe u're not reading this.. but if it so happens. anyhow, u're a great drummer to be! heh heh. the self-hired photographer. wahahaha

n sorry to caylynn for not making it to her performance as well. the next one! better keep me inform!

and carrying ard huge bass amp isnt of any fun. lol. MARILYN U OWE ME A BIG ONE.

n for the rest of u.. U SUCK. wahhahahahahahahahahhaahaha.

3 days updateeeeeeeeee

2006-05-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

ok the drum set sucks. n the security guard is such a bitch.

so we took a break and went out of the skool to fag.. a police stopped by to screen. wahlau. the second time i got into this... [or was it the third?] sudden feeling of fear instantly cropped up. they were like "smoking ah? u working here?" blablablayadayada n didnt have my ic with me.. the yaya newbie lady police act so yaya-ly fierce.waaaaaa i've gt to admit.. i was scared for the moment tht they might just call my hse later on. but they said they're looking on for hp theft.. although they didnt ask for no.. they culd always track dwn.. [isnt tht their past-time? tracking]

wanted to go to al-ameen. but marilyn being the fickle impulsive her.. suddenly stop the driver at prata cafe instead. speakin of which...i feel like eating french prata NOW! hahahahhaaha.

crashed at marilyn's place for a bit. nap-ped for a bit. drool-ed all over [joshin!].WAAAAAAAAAAA and she cooked! maggie mee....

watched napolean dynamite for like the third time. i dun even noe y i made myself watched it for the third time. "Freakin Idiot"seriously after u watch tht show.. u'll be jus as stone as he is. haha.
weigh myself [yes. it's been so long since i last scaled myself n the scale at home is broken. MUST BE] n the result was ARGH!put on 5kgs. mo'fo. i cant wait to finish my time working.. so i'll go back to normal state of not eating.working has my made my appetite UNLIMITED. eating at every hour [exaggerating].. if there's food, there's definitely eating.flabby here and there now. fucking sadddddd
3 more mths of work.. 3 more.. then off to being no money again.. i seriously dunno if i'm anticipating skool.. or not.all the socialising step again. YAWN.i finally figured what i wanna do when i have the qualification. n i realised mum has nv been supportive in whatever i wanna do,period. typical.=S

the very same nite.. or mornin. [i cant tell the diff] marilyn made my heart skip 3 beats [yes not one] sayin "we got into a car accident". gurl. u better not kid me. but gd thing u'r fine. :D
sunday.. spent the whole day slping.. and watchin live 8. thnks for the discs MA-RO-LEN!

monday... went to work. where else? wahahahah. took time off.. yay to dad for sending me back to mdis to get my fees paid. no yay to u for not forking in a single cent. but u saved my transport fees. YAY! and yay.............................. skool in aug.. yay....................................... n i culdnt believe myself tht i've been dragged by marilyn to tht crapula underage gimmick tmr. sheesh sheesh sheesh.

*fuckeelala

2006-05-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

okkk. i have got to admit tht justin lacey [or whatever his name is] is HOT. woo. so they were at raffles place giving away nivea whitening lotion, topless. and all of them looks hot. wahahaha

most were queueing up under his line anyways. and the guys were all topless and sweaty...[not so sure if it's a euuww or SWOoOOns.] so he was gg with a dead beat accent tone "sorry this is so slow" "wow. so many ladies" "this is a whitening blablabla." "sorry sir. it's only for the ladies" "hi. enjoy." "have a nice day. take care" "here u go" believe me. it's a dead tone. but quite cool. hahaha.

WEDNESDAY

TOURIST YES WE GT LOST YES IN RAFFLES YES. KAWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII neh.

bad... red... spots...!

2006-05-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

so saturday... was pretty alright. did the usual. there were like 4 plans but have to ditched 2 of 'em. oh well not really. hah.

it was pretty rushy here and there. marilyn changed the bloody timeslot and she herself was unsure of it. tsktsk. n it made me the earliest [wad a miracle] becuz i was already otw to somewhere else.. so i ended backing up on it n went str to margaret drive..
u noe.. it's definitely a GOOD thing tht i was waiting at a jamming studio instead of elsewhere cuz den.. i'll wait with little-boredom and alot ALOT of stoning and pigeons-gazing, fighting over food and how funny they eat. such small mouth could scatter the food pretty all over.

i practically waited for those 2 like 1 hr plus. i think it's karma...retribution.. whatever. hahhaha. cuz i usually made them wait.. but still......

it wasnt so bad.. but i was pretty badly distracted somehow.. [not tht i havent always been NOT distracted] i kept screwing up [again.. not as if i dun always KEEP screwing up]. and marilyn gt her parts all rite! congratulations babe! wad an achievement it was for u... not for me. heh.

so.. [i noe. i realised i used alot of "SO"] after THT we rushed off to ngee ann's concert band thingy.. i culd have not gone bt my dear gurl has already paid six bucks for it [which i probably have to pay her back]. so it's not as if i'm bein forced to.. but more like HAVE to. [define THT].

so [oh there i go again].. was supposed to reach home by 9.. and yet, i reached at 11. shldnt have fag on the way back. migraine has gotten so bad tht when i walk, i nearly smash my head against a truck's side view mirror... mum was YAY! she's in a good mood cuz she's sick [ok not really] maybe becuz my aunt n coz was over at my place. heh heh.

urgh! my coz always takes up the most space when slpin. i was literally on the edge of the bed with no less than a mere inch of a comforter. n another URGH! my unknown rashes hasnt got any better. it's becoming red-der [if there's such a word].

SUNDAY! how i hate the next day is monday.. sigh. why cant the day after sunday be.. like... say.. friday? so it'll be.. friday.. sat.. sun.. fri.. sat.. sun.. fri.. [ok i think u get the point]... so [uh oh] i was practically lying ard watchin friends the whole day.. [not really.. since it's still sunday now] and i'm HUNGRY. working has definitely [x10] increase my f*cking appetite [i shall refrain myself frm too much profanities]. evryday eat eat eat = fat fat fat. how ironic tht those two words are so similar in a way n tht e is after f.

ok i hate long entries.. but i just loveeeeeee gg on and on and on and on.

*a lovely fren once said. blog bout everyday event so when u read, u'll look back on what u've done to BLABLABLABLABLA.

allergies on life

2006-05-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

fuck sia! my feet are damn itchy. rashes popping out just like popcorn. eeuw gross. hahahah! i'm scratching non stop even while typing these. n i have no idea wad caused it.. at first it was this one dot so i scratched and today it was like woahhh massive attack!

ok so.. i took half day leave today. it was the biggest dilemma i have ever been on. i was practically deciding if i shld.

why i shld : - get to go home and slp [which is "riiiiiiiiite"]
- no work [duh?]
- get to do wadeva i wan! [which is nth]

why i shldnt : - MONEY!! MONEY!!
- well.. i felt like i was lying to myself.. although i AM sick but not THT sick to be taking half day.

i think my mum's hallucinating.. it's so. so WEIRD. she coughed and she asked me if my bro's back frm camp cuz she heard some1 cough. [errrrrrrrrrr??] hahahahaha!

ya and thnks to mum, i'm sick. and these rashes are killing me!!

have to go to so many places tmr. dunno if tht shld be a yay or a boooo.

i miss ******-***!! yes i miss astericks and stars. hahhahha

reverse solidus

2006-05-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,
i am so inspired to 'write' to you for the moment.. yet i cant seemed to be able to think of something nice to start with.
many many things have took place.. oh wait.. i'm not so sure.

i have never [yes NEVER] realised how depressed i am.. well tht's besides the point.
to think of how much more of my life will continue to be more and more screwed.
to think tht if this is to much to endure.
to think of just letting it all go.
to think tht.. this might be the last and yet, it's not.

and i'm a walking, talking, moving, living contradiction.
the facade i put on, the charade i portray.
the heaps of confounded catechization
the fables i share
the responsibilty i shunned aside
the fact tht i refused to not be oblivious
the failures i cant seem to avoid n heading my way real fast

to always be smiling when the ugly truth is vice versa.
to always try cheer someone up when [ditto]
to always be laughing when deep down it is choked and waiting to burst
the wiles i used tht happened to work.
the voices i hear and speak to, in me.
yes, and the lies i have to carry.

how i want to come apart at the seam tht seemed barely possible.
how badly jinxed i am [the cracked phone, the rip apart shoes, the cursings, the lectures.. all at the same day]

and the irony i have tht the world is so squared.
and 6,608 number of days i have lived till this very moment.
and the time i've calmly massacre when i'm supposed to clearing my room

oh well.. back to cleaning. or shld i say. i better start since it's erm.. 2320 now.

as cliche as this might sound.. this is so random...... hah!

Footloose

2006-05-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

definition of myself : - a worthless white elephant tht has a fucking catastrophe. FIASCO..

just like a smoked sardine

2006-04-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

stone.. stone.. stone.. and more stoning. my head is heavy and so is my shoulder with the many many lies i carry.

i really really reallyyyyyyyy do appreciate people like marilyn.. and egan.. and who else? [probably those of whom i have meaningful talks with] hmm. anyways. kudos to them for knocking some sense into me, today.. tmr.. the next day.. and the next day and the next day.. and... yeaaaaaaa. sometimes talking bout life's miserable-ness and enjoyment puts me in a spot to be a real person. not some lunatic witty "shit". and i dun have to be an asshole to be gloating over someone else's misery.

quote from my dearest wise frens.. "always look on the bright side of life and stay POSITIVE!"
so i've learned not to hate life now. :D although how sucky-ly bad it can get..

today was "fun" compared to the days i have on weekdays.. DUH. haha. [those of whom noes me.. noes how sucky it culd get.. with the constant ringing up frm my dearest mum]
i wasted alot and alot of M&Msss. fed the floor instead of the HUMANS tht are "anticipating" to eat it. and they were eating magic dust or wadeva is tht call.. and marilyn, thnks for tht sticky-sweet-peck. bwahhahaha.
jamming was o-kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. dalive said we were fooling ard. well if u're reading this.. we werent. we still played non stop music. yeayea dun take it too personnallyyyyy. i noe.
so after jamming we hung ard the studio. cuz i didnt wan to go home early.. and tht poor egan has got no1 to be of his company [awwwwww] although wan and marilyn are having fever [get well soon!!].
so we sat and fag and talk and fag and talk and fag. marilyn the mad moo moo whom decided to take out the filter. mad gurl! look at the amount of tar tht's gg to get in u. funny. wads so funny i dunno. and ohhhhhhh i'm so gonna blog bout this!! now tht i rmbered it was hilarious only tht i was too stoned to laugh just now. anyhoooss..marilyn wanted to BOMB but the ladies was locked and the gents' lights were off. and so she went in without closing the door. imagine if i were to leave u there. with the main and ur door, open! BWHAAHAH! ok but i did not. see i'm nice afterall. or have i been one all these while? wahahah

i cant think straight now.. tht's for the endless typing here. just cant seem to stop. a lil schizophrenic i must say.

oh another thnks to my dearest MARILYN. thnks for the cab fare. although i had to give him a strip tease cuz it was overshot.

and i fell aslp while typing all these. sheehsh.

wow. wad a boring long post. i'm sorry to the ppl who wants to read it. well i bet noone reads it anyways. tht's the fun part. blogging for the fun of bein a certified schizo.

Pestss everywhere

2006-04-22T02:09:00.000+08:00

my dad came home to get some of his stuffs for the weekend. and he brought his bitch along. she was sitting in the car though. fucking hell. i even need to shake her hands just becuz i came to the stupid car. big mistake. act like some socialite. fucking asshole . hahaha. just pissed tht's all.

lay my hands off.

and stupid roach tht crawled on my leg. i;m so gonna squash u when i find u. which will nv happen. cuz u irks me. hahahah!

i see BLUE.. let's take off our clothes!!

2006-04-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

i see my head floating up up upppppppppp the ceiling. well tht's just a metaphor.

i wuld like to thnk pam for accompanying me. hahahaha

marilyn rocks rocks rocks ROCKS. hhhahahhaahaha.

it's good to have fun ass kicking frens. hahhahaa

do i laugh alot?? hmmm shld cut down ah. be all mellowwwwwwwwww. hahhahha

and yet.. i'm laughing my wayyyyy

my head's not floating anymore!! i'm bounded to the ground once again! yay! there's not a need to take off ur clothes! but still.. i think i'm high. hmm

fo'shizzle ma'hizzle. hahahaa. o-kaaaaaaaaaaaay

i realise now my taggywag has become a debate center for living in the north south east west. wahahha

ok.... time to stop.. it's friday!! yay!! i lurveeeeeee when time passes so fastttttttt.
gonna go inline skating.. or skatingggg with urs trulyyyy.

P&M business getting good oso. we gt ourselves a new client.. SHAN! welcome to the club of FOC at the point of time but pay up by the end of the mth. hahha ok tht's hogwash.

i might seem all happy but i;m not. like this WISE person i noe of [marilyn]. FACE THE PROBLEM. THINK POSITIVELY! did she say sth like tht? hahahha. hmmm oh swelll..

-head rush- 6 sticks of staleness

2006-04-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

wad a day today..

and i culdnt believe myself... tht i told my brother [out of all ppl] my deepest darkest secret..
just becuz of this incident.. i think i acted on impulse. the usual me. impulsive. but i hope things doesnt turn up strange btw us though... still now it feels all weird.. why in the world did i tell him..i'm not so sure... luckily for me.. it's not the same kind of on gg sibling relationship we used to have.. if not.. i'd be better off dead.. now.. at least a family member noes tht i fag.. but still i'm praying every min tht he wun spill the beans.. cuz he's doin it too.. soo woohoo. somehow this family saga has brought me and bro closer..

this is boring. i've been yapping bout this family drama everytime. SICK.

how bout... PAM! LET's MOVE TGT!!! to the west?! nono. central!!? on?!? hahhahaha. no yishun plssssss. so SIAN. hahhahahaa yea. we were sitting at the bus stop talkin bout THT. how.. nice............

wad else wad else..
i have promised myself too.. tht i'll start to be punctual but yet again.. tht culd simply be put off as another lie. bt it's also a promise to my dearest pomelo. tmr i'm gg to be early for work!!!

and.. i'm broke. dunno work for wad.

i feel like i'm cheating myself and my mum. damn.

ACTUALLY... i had wanted to blog about so many things but the mood just died and faded so.. now i'm totally clueless. AND i need some help in getting back my focus... seems to be drifting as well..

i think my name has officially changed to MAIRAH. the poor UltiMateMAIRAH is gone. wahhhahaa. stop kicking the UM of Mairah ppl. ok larhs fine. i am gg on and on and on and on and on. maybe i shld just stop

*stay together for the kids

2006-04-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

guess wad! i can play the freaking intro just by learning it an hr. ok... not wanna say i'm Tom now.. but. well.. at least i can play it. wahhaha. [i'm so happy.. although i noe tht song's intro is freaking simple. but it's my fav. so go and say i sucked. i couldnt be a lil less bothered]

7th april... the one where we wuld all go happy anniversary!!! but this year it seems not much of a significance. today wuld be 22 yearssssss....., 22 freaking years.
tsktsk.

Dolly treat me lunch today. although yea yea. nth much to say.. and omgness. i only covered two bad cases today. if she were to find out... she'll be shocked! since i usually finish one whole code per day.. [which is ALOT.. try 100] sheesh.

tiring week. tiring week.

jilly's all saddddd if i were to move. lol. ok. considerations proposal of NOT moving are on the table. YAY!!!! *plsplsplsplsplsplsplssss.

with fingers crossed and high hopes.. i leave it as it is.. for now..

Officially D

2006-04-04T02:41:00.000+08:00

Ok. so the day has come. the verdict has been settled. and i'm not pleased with everything tht has been happening to me. since the first day of my life. so... chances are. [99%] moving out of this 12 yrs old hse. good bye nearby frens! gd bye.. home.. ok.. tht's tad lame.

ok mum's pissed with me AGAIN and her pissing off with me ticked me. $^%&@$#&^@$#~!!!

sigh. ok now i feel like dying. ok.. not.

hmm. i really think somehow i have mental issues. yay to tht.

ps; sorry to ppl i have been screaming my lungs out these few days. even though u dun read this.. still.. this is the only thing i can "talk" to rite now.

so this is the turning point for me. i wuld like to thnk my dad for everything he has done. and... for making it "ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY".

Now THAT's hogwash.

marl light is ACK!

2006-03-30T01:34:00.000+08:00

first time ever shk with jill. wahhahaah. SHK.. forgot wad it stands for though.
[fag.]

since i've gt nth better to do than slping.. i shall blog for awhile.

all i can smell now is smoke. geez.

shld be getting back to work. sigh. i'm so gonna miss home. wahhaha. i'm "homesick".

and i'm skoolsick as well. sigh sigh sigh.

i think i need a freakin life. although, marilyn said we do afterall have alot of stuffs gg on. skool, work, etc etc. still i dun feel any of it. esp work. so no life. wahahah

and i'm still figuring out wad and how my life's gonna be like after 3rd april.
the big VERDICT.... which i dun anticipate and dunno when. wadeva.
stupid bitch.
i wish and hope i can stay on. too much.. it's all too much..
everything's falling apart. thnks to mum.. for pullin it all together. keeping us strong.
hopefully.. i can breathe better.. cleaner... fresher.. air once it's all over.

i think i'm gettin lamer and lamer each day. stupid cold jokes. sigh.

anyhoos. think this is crap. blogged just to kill time and help me with my "schizo-ness". hmmm. better get to bed, since the pills are taking its toll on me..

stupid aches.

light headedness.

*i dislike smokers but i lurve smoking

2006-03-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

omgness. i have a very hilarious "story" to share. i fell off the stairs!! the funny thing was, i fell.. regained my balance and fell again! goodness. i felt like an airhead! and i will keep on laughing everytime i tell it to someone or to myself, even on this very moment. *guffaws. so cartoon pls.

hmm. so much tht happened in such a lil time.

first of all, a tribute to my aunt whom passed away on friday due to KLEBSIELLA SEPTICAEMIC SHOCK [wadeva tht means].
Always be in our loving memories.

Becuz of the above incident, i've gt to cut some slack off work for 2 days and now i need to replenish the total 8 hrs of cutting the "slacks" [haha].

Sat nite went out. mum was pretty ok with it.. sun went out mum was totally pissed cuz i didnt tell her. so had a big squabble and ended up giving her the silent treatment for a day. till i fell and HAD to share it with her. wahhahahah. i culdnt contain myself. was bursting out loud.

sunday was nice. i wanna thnk AHEMAHEM for supplyin me AHEMAHEM. heh. went to wan's place... den off to jamming.. den back to wan's place to eat den off to bt timah to marilyn's place [supposedly to be home]
it was nice tht when mum called i said i was on the way home, [already cheesed off by the fact tht i'm not yet home] but i decided not to take the bus and went to coffee bean's at marilyn's place instead... to just TALK. bout stuffs. if only i have time to do chain smoking bwahahahah. jokes. SOOOOOOooooooo. i ended up gettin the yelling of my life frm urs-truly [mum].

so now.. i'm currently injured waist down. thnks to my poopyhead. and i think this entry is sooo UN-rad. and i'm so sick of the layout. hahha

loopy service

2006-03-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

few days since last updated.

NEWS FLASH: internet's suspended.

work on this song with wan around 1 plus am! who wuld do tht?! lyrical wise,pretty funny i must say. Do tht till i had no time for ppt! and scare the shit out of each other by those WOOOOO thing. slpt at 3, woke up at 5, stoned all the way.. decided to do my ppt while on the way to work. still, culdnt get it done.

had presentation today. i wuld like to thnk Lishan and Salini for helping me with it. :D
Jailani is nice. joked all the way. presented last, and i warned him mine is very boring. spur of the moment kinda thing. well he said nvm. he's sooooo "SOFT" la. and FUNNY! hahahhaha

Salini waited for me. to kill time. hahahahah poor her. had to wait till dunno when. den still not enuff time killed she said lets go eat. so not knowing where to go and dying from carryin those laptops, went to the bus stop and decided to hop on any bus tht comes by. and so.... ended up at tiong bahru plaza which so reminds me of northpoint.

so tired. so now my wish is not to have a disastrous weekend. or i'll have to look forward for another weekend for one whole week! i wanna crash at hippo's place and have a "drama" marathon!!!! grrrrrrrr. yay! i have sth to watch... BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN. gt it from Jo. [thnks] Woooooooooots!

6 legged freaks.

2006-03-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

i'm effing miffed,pissed and whatnot.

the pest-"free" house has now officially become pest-infested instead. i dunno wads up with tht larhs. fucking cockroaches and lizards. it's the pest season. even my room is infested. damn. gonna get a sheltox or baygon BOMB and tear it with tear gas as well. made them fucking suffer. wahahah. i was chasing this freaking roach when i saw lizard on the floor. now my kitchen is like their playground. roach scramble for life as lizard passes by. i noe it's disgusting. but my mum sweeps the floor everyday! fucking dumpsters. fogging. and all the shitty shitty shat. NOW i dun dare go to the kitchen becuz those friggin things irks me. i dun get roaches larhs. when u wanna spray a lizard it will move AWAY from u. but those friggin roaches will come to you. dimwit asswipey nincompoopsssss.

i wanna make a wish. may all the pests be depleted. YAY-nessssssssssss! oops batt running low. TATA!

MDIS

2006-03-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

i hate the saturday i had.
after a one whole week of looking forward to the weekends, it ended up like shit.

first of all i wuld like to thnk everyone. esp ALBERT EINSTEIN for helping me. wahhhaa.
And also Picasso. Leonardo Da Vin Ci. the Da Vin Ci code.
ok larhs tht's lame

didnt slp from fri till sat. OH YEA. i want to thnk aloysius. for bein so nice. hahaha thnks for the calls becuz i kept dozing off. THNK u. hahaha

deeeeeeeen. rushed and sadly i couldnt hit the mark of 3000 words. hope they dun count it. i took cab down somemore! den i felt like stabing the driver from the back for drvin 50kmph!!! and there's not even a single damn car. and communication breakdown as well. wad an TOOTOTOOTOTOTOT! luckily they still accept my work ten minutes after two. or else i'm gg to weep there. hahaha

things couldnt get any better when marilyn couldnt turn up.. 2 more dudes too... and the jamming studio called to infrm tht our slot had been given to a fucking dimwit nincompoop house band. wahahhaah. pissed larhs. was already so effing bored. so decided to call wan to join us in the MDIS canteen. brought his lil acoustic guitar and started playing. at least tht was refreshing. den went KFC with wan. Dalif couldnt be supportin enuff to gain a lil calories.

at clementi's kfc.. laughed all the way at wan's clownish act or rather i say face. with a lost of appetite at the sight of the kfc worker BOY digging his nose like nobody's business. laughed too much till i gt choked.

on the way back. phone batt went flat and so did ipod's.

rushed to see results and to find it wasnt there..... another faggoty heart shattering moment.
I SO DESERVE A BETTER DAY PLS.

woke up early on sun cuz promised gramps tht i'll go get her med failing to do the day before.
after the clinic trip i went home slpt all the way till 6.. crap alot with mum. she's my crapping kaki at home.
MOULIN ROUGE!!!!!!!! woohoooo. hahhaa. ok wadeva tht was for.

so now.. i think i better go off to bed. since i'm typin at the spur of the moment kinda thing and it's already close to 230.. and i'm suppose to help eileen. sheesh

payday! pay cheque! pay slip! & everything tht has gt to do with it!

2006-02-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

my day was off to a rocky start. mum was pissed with me the nite for not slpin early. screaming her usual passe. and i was pissed with her for saying.. "tak nak jumpe pontianak ni kat situ!" in short.. or english i mean. dun wan to come across ghost at the place i was situated or some sort like tht. i was effing pissed. so decided not to slp with her. let the ghost slp with her instead. wahahaha.

den.. i made her rush in the morning for work. so. more angry faces.
i wasnt and couldnt even be bothered. till pame told me she just took train and most prob same train as me.. and she cracked a joke. TAKING ON MY MUM's SIDE. u asswipe. hahahhaha. so finally.. me and mum started laughin. about wad pam said. wahahahaha

and the eyes of the zealots is like playing repetitionly in my head. and i dun even noe if it's correct larhs. wahahah

yay! i gt my pay today! working for 14 days and i earned $5++ inclusive of cpf's deduction. MUAHAHAHHAHA. i was fucking happy. frm den on.. everythin became cheery. me and mum was laughin our ass off at our silly lil things in the train. i think everyone looked. she was like "ah. my boobs itchy.." =.= hahahhaah. fucking hilarious larhs. and she was saying chim words in malay.. like tuntut. ok it's cheem to me. so i was like "can u speak english?" with tht kind of dumb face. den she said.. "wah.. action. speak english" hahah. and calculation ended up becomin some other dumb pronounciation. KALKUTATION? dammit.

and i found my topic paper for grad proj! yay. i was happy too. but i dunno when i will start.

and dalif's bugging everyone bout friday having a "performance" in the morn!! how the hell am i gg to tell DOLLY and my MUM. hahaha. my mum wuld probably be yadablooblablee.

my ipod has gone bonkers! S-O-B. sob sob.

music makes me lose control

2006-02-27T01:03:00.001+08:00

ok. sat was great i suppose?

went jamming. time just seems to fly pass fast on weekends dun they?
jam jam jam. tht's all.
Then met up with shan at orchard. she said she wanna pass me stuffs but noooooooo she came empty handed. well literally. Shan was starved, so went to Taka's Mac while waiting for marilyn.

Funny thing was.. we were mocking this person.. and it turns out to be AHEM!!! wahahhaha me and shan were laughin our ass off. shan. u noe wad i mean. hahahaa.

then. we went down to catch asian beats grand final. i hope shan was ok with it. wahahahahah. and she fell in lurve with the jap band wahahahah! jokes. i didnt stay till the end so sad. cuz marilyn told me better bands were up after i left :S

SUNday...

slpt for ard 13 to 14 hrs.. how gd is tht!? power. alot of weird dreams. hahaha! den went down to the lamest place of all northpoint with jillian ard evening time. how i wish the time will stop!! am i suppose to look forward to weekdays? i guess not. working makes me fat. BUXOM! damn. so sadddennninnng. how i wish there will be more weekends than weekdays.. wahhaaha.

STANKY-WANKY.

2006-02-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

it's me. back again. to do wad i'm best at. e.i. talk crap.

let's start off with... WORK!

2 weeks have gone and a gazillion more to go! kudos to tht.
Poster Girl didnt call me today! when she actually [i think] was supposed to.

had free food today! it was one of the kind-est and friendliest colleague's last day.... so SAD. i guess. she always greet me morning. now i guess subtract.. add. and multiply.. 8/10 guys are fucking stuck up. half of the gurls.. fucking-punch-me-look attitude. [calculations are hypothetically speakin]

she gave us.. ferreroooooos.. durian! omg. the whole office stank pls. smell like someone planted a fart bomb. after eating tht i gt sore throat.. SHEESH. and each time i burp.. POOF! DURIAN! till now still it tastes of durian. burping durian.

den. she bought for everyone Don's pie or wadeva the name was except me. she bought me BK.
ONION ring. wah. bad flaming breath day. sure cfm bad breath. hahahahahah. awesome killer!

AND she pronounces my name even better than i do! how strange.

and YAY it's weekend!!!

first time ever there's no cake.. no happy birthday sing-song on 21st feb.. sigh. daddy daddy daddy.
wahlau sounds so gay.

anyhooooooooos ovua!

blinding city lights*

2006-02-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday..
i wanted to add in the words to the song.. but it might sound too corny.

i was dead yesterday. but i came back to life today.
literally larhs.

ok and since i'm like dead bored now.. i'ma keep on typin till i have nth to type. so if u wan... just bear with me.

yay. acjc fair was YAWNNNNNnnnnnnnnn. jamming was quite alrite. fun like always.
then off to jilly-yo's bdae. happy 18th birthday Jillian Adalia Frances or issit Adalia Jillian Frances? bwahahah. i dunno why i just said her full name also.. must be pretty bored now. hahhak. sorry. belated prezzie.
too bad and so SAD ur planned dance party didnt happen, gurl. shucks.
i was high for no reason. think they realised tht too. and rai kept sayin i secretly drank the carlsberg larhs. like wth. hahahahhahahahaha. they had chivas stashed there. benedict tawt me how to eat unshelled prawns. like so gross larhs. chew everything including the shit. eeeuw. finally manage to touch his mohawk. wahahhahahhaha! played with "bunye api"! and after the sparks died i swing it and hit fleffy's face. oops! sorry. heh heh.

my shirt was all polka-dotted with oil and grease. and i had to be so porn about it and say "oops my milk" loudly. jillian was busy barbequeing larhs. and they had so much foooddddddddddd. and fleffy was busy tryin to achieve fire.

feel bad for leaving early. but like waynie said.. we left to keep u and fleffy reserved for later. heh heh heh. waynie's all GRRRRRRRRR over her MrBf.

and now jillian's tellin me.. we shldnt have left early becuz the fun happened soon after.DAMN. but i think i would probably be stoked off by then. hahaa.

i realised tht rai,wan and me did alot of running to catch for bus. twice somemore. sheesh. and wan ran like so fast. me and rai was laughing our ass off while running. hahahaha.
and i hate it when i ended up smellin of smoke.

the bus must have stank!

fuck fuckin fuckinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2006-02-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

i am so fuckin miffed and ticked off by *******. fuck annoying.

it's four days of work and my neck down is SEVERED. yerps tht's the word alrite. severed. sigh. i cant touch it. it's strained and sored.
i seriously dunno if i culd survive another week sitting and not moving. hahhaha

and i'm growing FAT!!! tht's fucking sad.

and i'm fucking broke. a weekend to look forward to.. hopefully. i cant wait for the weekend. cuz i can like finally sleeeeeeeep. but not this weekend. my oh my. i dun even noe wad i'm talkin.

at work i laugh to myself. it is somehow quite nostalgic.. i dunno if tht's the word to remind me of the times spent in comp lab for F&N for hours..
and there's also... mrs lim VOICE-alike. hahaha.
and their pronounciation...... tsktsk.
"HELLO. THIS IS HONG LEONG FINAN. I blabablaablablablababa HEP u to blablalba." imagine if they were to sing HELP.. HEP! i need somebody. HEP! not just anybodyy.. HAHA

they use alot of AH.. HOR.. den some sound like loanshark asking for money.. some.. very fucking mellow. hilarious larhs.

and the most fucking hilarious thing was... i got lost in lau pa sat. how asinine is tht!? everytime go still dunno the way. hahahah. oh yea. i came with the tag marked "no sense of directions".

i had apple crumble two days before..!! apple strudel next! hor.. shan!! LOL!

ok larhs. better get my poor slp.. sigh.

*KUEH

2006-02-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

i cant fucking bend my toes!! urgh!! frustrating.

and i'm seeing too many colours.. mostly purple and green!! thnks to mich. KUEH larhs. KUEH.

i'm also seeing too many numbers.. oh my oh my.. my eyes are already bad enuff.

pls be weekend soon!! the hrs are dead and so are the minutes.

i seriously need rest. wahahahah. i missed slpin till like 5..6 pm? sobsob

*come fly with me.. let's fly.. let's fly away!
and yes. i'm high for no reason. when i'm supposed to be stoked off. yawn.

blister down my toes*

2006-02-13T22:12:00.000+08:00

yay. i finally had my LJS date with two of the greatest mo'fo asswipes u CANT find in this world. YERPS. they're so fucking special becuz they are the only "creatures" tht rocked! ahahhahaah!

yay! waynie rocked for treating us! jilly... she made us walked. me.. i made them mad?

TODAY = tired. slpy.

day at work was fineee. it's so weird tht the one i'm under is named DOLLY. so remind me of SUEANN! hahahahahahahah. she gave me swwweeeets.. oranges... some weird sweet snacks.. toilet paper? and made me milo! which i didnt really finish. HAHAHAH

my feet fucking hurt rite up to my toes. my nails feel like it's being pulled or ripped out frm the flesh.

i've learnt to appreciate computers another way for being stucked to it for so long. or not.

anyhoos.. i hope to catch up with u guys soon. [whoever this may be referring to.] if u feel i'm referrin to u... den yerps. it's u.. i guesss. since u are reading it?

And i've also learnt a lesson. give help to only ppl tht are NOT close to ur heart becuz only them will help u or sometimes not BUT at least if they dun.. u dun feel badly disappointed. hahahahaha. ok tht's utter hogwash.

ovua ppl!

*pitter-patter

2006-02-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

brief summary;
-went to skool for a very short meeting on the grad proj.
-met up with sue ann and nat at sakae.
-bluetooth-ed at random. HAHA!
-gt killed by sue ann's par fum sprayed on us. [shake tht thang. watch urself!. shake tht ass. show me wad u gt!]
-nat went missing. HEH HEH.
-she also did alot of suicidal cuts on her wrist. RITE.
-blablablabla. left shan and me.
-went far east... wisma.... [famous amos! finally...].. cine...
-i bust every joints.. frm my waist down.
-went home!
-hoping to slp.. but feel like playin game.. HMMMM..

ok. tht's all.

*the bird tht woke me up

2006-02-09T14:54:00.000+08:00

yes. let the words speak for itself.
i was slpin and dreaming away when i heard continuous knockin on the window. i ignored the first few times but it just wun stop.. so ard 9 am my awareness [thnk god] was working and i dunno why fear crept in. although i knew wad to expect, i still have fear of wad is to come. ahahaha. so i pulled the curtain and there it was. a bird.
YES. a bird woke me up. sounds ironic to me. anyways. it wasnt the usual clitter-clatter sound of it's claw or feet on the ledge but it was knockin and clawing on the window. it wasnt tryin to "break in" [hahah!] ok maybe not but it was tryn to enter.. like running away frm sth. and usually when birds are on the ledge.. and i pushed the curtain aside.. it wuld fly away. but this one.. was being more MORE into "digging" its way in. i didnt open the window duh?! if it was the usual canary or the blue bird or some nicer birds i wuld.

here are two pictures taken with my oh-so-lovely-spoilt-motorola-phone:

i didnt manage to capture the one tht look scarily fierce.
and yes tht's the tree my gramps wuld usually refer to when she's scarin me bout some thingy laughin there or sth.

ps: i think this bird is xiang's doin.. she and her bird talks

enuff of today lets talk bout yest.

went to *'s hse for sth sth. LOL. bloody huge area.. awesome for bon fire. hahahah.
reached home... 2230. was so tired.. slpt for less than 2 hrs the day before.
in the morning.. went for this interview thingy for this thingy thing and this thingy made me wake up soo early just for the thing. ok tht's hogwash.

anyhooos. need to go back to skool tmr.... must wake up early again....... CRAP.. oh! and o's results are out tmr!! like tht have anything to do with me.

*healing

2006-02-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

my wrist is finally getting better although it's still a lil sore... after a massive sprain frm drumming.
yes. it's silly. must warm up the joint before drumming next time.
now, i can start bending slightly upwards already. hooray to tht. hopefully it'll be fine by fri?

*fly back home

2006-02-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

finally i saw u today.
when u hugged me i was speeechless and on the verge of bawling.
and i still dun understand u.. sheesh.

went jamming and my plan for being early was ruined like usual. damn.
i would have guessed it to rain anyways. like always.
dalif and his sweetest sins. GRRRR. hahahaha. [dal, i'm gonna tell the whole world!!!]
finally recorded sth so tht i culd rmb the beats. yeas. i'm blur. i always forget.
as soon as i gt back home. i was like all zombiefied. soo lethargic.

bro's watching soccer now. cant watch tv.. -pouts. gonna have guests over at my place tmr... lers. cant wake up late.

anyways.. i cant rmb wad other crap i wanna type already so... toodles!!

*terror scream!

2006-02-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

my gramps just love to scare the crap out of me. =.=

this has become a daily routine.. waking up at 4. yerps. tht's bad.
i've got to plant in a new resolution..; slp early = wake up early.

things i wanna do...;
CLEAR MY GARBAGE-LIKE ROOM. so dusty. everywhere dust. gosh.

went hospital visiting today. too bad larhs. nth to do oso.. so might as well tag along with mum. HAHsssssss sigh..
and now. there's a creepy sound in the kitchen. =.=

and my lappy's batt also getting sucky. =.=

and it's only WEDNESDAY!!! =.=

nth to look forward too. boring boring boring boring boringX500 and utter boredom.

better get gg before.. before someone scares the crap out of me or before mum starts screamin for stayin up late.. like always.

SHEESH!

2006-01-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

on the days tht i want to eat, there's no food. WTH!
now i'm effing hungry. feels like i havent ate for dunno how many years..
*eh i just realised i havent had any LJS for so effing long. wahhahaah!!
LOACKER to the rescue again..., hopefully.

i shld start sleepin early too, period! in case of anything.
and in any case u ppl dun understand "period". it simply means emphasizing finality.

argh!!! my LOACKER is finshed!!! sob. now wad the heck am i gg to eat.
wtf wth wtf wth!!!

am hungry am bored. am CRANKY!

NEXT!!!!!!!

2006-01-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

how boring could the show "anna and the king" be?? sheesh.

boring boring boring boring boring. NEXT!

**senseless

2006-01-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness, people.
i need a favour. Can someone please knock[HARD] some sense into my head..?
i need to start rememberin to eat. ANYONE???

i havent eat anything the whole day, AGAIN. i dunno how and why.
but i think my gramps keep pesterin me to eat but somehow.
the words she said didnt enter my slow-STONED-transmission-brain.

thnks to LOACKER.. i have sth to eat. cuz when i realised...... the food has finiTO.
and now my gum and teeth hurts becuz i didnt chew much for the day. DAMMIT.

dang. mum's not workin for the whole week. dunno if it's a gd or bad thing. good.. i dun have to do chores, i can crap and bully.
bad.. NAGGIN!! more naggin. cant dance and jump on HER bed. wahahhaha. [ok i dun do tht for nuts. i do it on my own bed]

anyhooooooos. Happy New Year to those celebrating Chinese New Year and Happy Holidays for those who dont.

angels deserve to fly.

2006-01-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

i guessed i had a bad day. papers.... was okay i guess and hope. i dunno why but my back, ache so bad during the progress of the examintaion..

went to town after tht to meet ian... saw alot of familiar faces [frens la. wad else]
wrong day to be meetin up with ian. he was drunk for goodness sake.
he grabbed my neck so hard tht it is sprained now. i kept pushin him away because my mum was on the line and he simply wuldnt shut up. and my mum was like.. "who is tht?!" "are u out dating?!" sigh. damn.
i blame his unsoberness. not him. hahahah!
he was acting like a crackpot along with his fren.
everyone was looking.. and i think from their view.. it looked like they were "abusing" me.
i heard ppl talkin to their frens.. "why is he walkin like tht?" blablabla.. kinda embarassing.
i became pretty miffed with ian though. cuz he was messing up my hair [i noe it is forever messy.. but he made it worst].. he keeps grabbing my neck. he was so strong i cant push him away. damn. so sent off his fren to the mrt station. was pretty hilarious though. like talkin to two insane ppl. after tht i got cranky and told ian i wanna get a drink. so went coffee bean.. let him slp while i stoned. sheesh. and he was plain annoying.. at least he noe he was. thnk GOD!

went home after tht. cant stand ppl not in their right mind. dun really like drunk ppl. past experiences.. ian was "sober" enuff to apologise. oh well. now my neck hurts pretty bad. thnks to him... and so is my back... dammit dammit dammit. oh well..

today is the day to do grocery shopping and u wuldnt be embarrassed or so for carryin those plastic bags.. becuz u can see ppl everywhere carryin it.

anyways.. hip hip hooray for the last day of dunno wad. yea. cheers. wadeva.

*damn satayssssssssssssssss

2006-01-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

mum gave me bad food!! bad!! food! wahhahahaah

mum asked me to eat satays tht are like days old. and now i have stomach ache. sigh.
i wonder how come there's no effect on hers. urgh!

i wonder who am i gonna meet later today. ok tht's crap. strike it off.
~~i wonder who am i gonna meet later today.~~

well hopefully this time round. the advert lecture will be REALLLLLLL lenient towards us. and give us alll distinction to make up for the rest of the subs. how bout tht?

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i just feel like continuin typin. u can leave now if u wan. hahahahh. kindly navigate to the "X" on the top-right hand corner.. and click it. THNK U!

damn. i'm in this nostalgic state.

-i watched the shorts for godzilla. i rmbed u makin jokes bout the "godzilla!!" "godzilla!!!!"
-her consistent naggings... i rmb the days where u will laugh it off with me.
-i look at the guitars... i rmb the days u played it awesomely...
-i see passing by bikes i rmb the rides u gave me..
-i look at the playstation and rmbs the day where u'll play red alert non-stop..

ok tht... i miss. the rest of u.. well i'm not so sure. most probably not. becuz everything else is equivalent to NUISANCE.
so dad. those are the things i might have missed. the rest. go dump it somewhere else.

*not much of a fable

2006-01-23T01:17:00.000+08:00

my mum has gone mad. she's singin "u'r beautiful" at this hour. wan to slp oso must sing loudly sheesh.

anyways. i'm gg off to bed.nth much to say. nth much to type. waking up early tmr. to help my mum with blablablablablablablablablablaX1000 god-knows-what. sigh.

am anticipating for these last two papers to end. not waiting FOR the PAPERS. if u get wad i mean. hopefully... i can do great for these papers.. to make it up for pr. so it wuldnt be THT bad after all.

well, good night ppl! toodles!

~what are the odds~

2006-01-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

yes yes. what are the odds of getting and being drenched in the rain twice.

ok. the start of saturday. my aunt called me "early" in the morning. ard 1000. my beauty sleep is ruined. thnks to her.

did some chores.. den went jamming. as usual, i was late. sheesh. the effing bus stop so far away from the studio. and it was raining HIPPO and FRENS. so.. i was drenched pretty badly. went in the studio and freeze my butt off. -burrrrrrrrrr-

after the jamming session.. decided to go watch Jam X with marilyn and her fren.. forgot wad's his name now. hmm. [sorry]
reached orchard.. went starbucks for a while. marilyn went to see and talk to her fren.
after tht went to youth park where the jam x was held. we reached the spot and it was already drizzling. and guess whom decided to crash the party.. HIPPO AND FRENS of course.
Note: the second time, drenched.
the bands.. wasnt so bad.

decided to leave and went to coffee club instead... marilyn fren waiting for his frens to go clubbing i think. bad memory... sat there... talk crap... stoning... blablablablablablabla and it's 2130... the "FREN" friends came. OH! his name was shahrul..? no? damn.. really bad memory. so he left. and we left as well. [wa grandmother story here]

marilyn waiting for her fren...so i decided to accompany her. so sat at mos burger to continue stoning... listening to songs... blablablablabla it was 2220... so i told her i wanted to leave because i was falling ill.. my hand was trembling pretty bad.. and i wasnt feelin cold. she said my body is quite warm.. so she being a kind soul. put her apron ard me. [aww aint tht sweet? bwahahahha!!] so back to story.. i have to leave her there alone. cannot take it already.

blablablablabla. i reached home at 2320. dunno why i took so long to reach home. reached home there's no panadold. damn! gramps cooked spaghetti.. so ate tht for my dinner cum supper. blablabla it's 0120 now..

my mum is being so nice recently. i just love it. i tawt she wuld freaked out after telling her tht pr paper was tough. but she was soo nice she didnt. i like it now.. tht she's so NICE! weeee. hahahahah she didnt scream and shout at me. i AM so glad. i wish this wuld last forever.

anyways. pomelo's waiting for me to finish updating this grandmother story... and shuld be gettin some rest as well..

telepathic letter

2006-01-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna cry for pr paper. sigh.
i actually did the ini-mini-miney-mo on the question......
i was sitting there. stoning like usual. den i sent a telepathic letter to up above.
i was sayin.. shld i pick this one? or shld i pick THIS one? pls tell me!!! and den a loud thunder boomed.

sheesh. i was like. hey a REPLY! and said to myself "i was hoping for it to be in english not some booming sound."
den another boom came and i apologised. wahahahhahaha. strange.... i think it's a sign telling me i gave the wrong answer. wahhaha
because after tht i realised i really wrote wrongly for it. sigh sigh sigh sigh.
ps: next time dun tell me in "boom" language. send me a note. in ENGLISH pretty plsss. :D

i was hungry. was sayin "i'm hungry" practically the whole ride home with nat. hahha. but i as soon as i've reached home i felt full. wth. obtuse appetite.

hey u typed it as nipatunawudo not NIPATUNANI! but nipatunani sounds nicer and it rhymes with punani anyways. sounds more real. hahhaha. bunch of bad smelling monkeys wanna "play chinese chess"?? wth.

nat, i shld have toook the TWEETY BIRD!!!!'s sister face larhs. but too bad no camera. hahha.

saw pei wen. hahahhahaa.

i think if everyone do badly for pr.... she wuld be lenient enough? no? ok she sucks den. haha!

Lil Miss "J" Has Decided To Strike Back!!

2006-01-20T02:07:00.000+08:00

ppl. run for ur lives. this vicious thing is back! bwahhaha. wadeva.

whats wrong with people.
they and their effing attitude.
i'm so sick and tired of their whines.
u ppl can kiss my ass.

i'm sick of ur stupid games either. but what i'm most sick of is U, U, U, U!
quick. get a personal attack and i dun care.
no more me putting up with the show u're playing.
no more nonsense frm u.

u ppl can fuck off.
u think u're some big hot shot.
but the truth is u'r not, ok?
so dont go ard acting like u're one.
when all u are is a piece of nincompoop.

a piece of advice. man. wad's the use of advice on someone like u anyway.
u will probably go ard and be an effing asshole.

and wad's up with the leash thingy. come on get a life. wads wrong with u ppl huh.

ps: lil miss "j" isnt me. in case there's a misunderstanding somewhere.

kill kill kill!!!

2006-01-14T14:22:00.000+08:00

ok. i couldnt update yesterday becuz i was out busy killing people.
yerps. Friday the 13th IS my day. I am JASON. the one with the mask and chain-saw!
muahahahahaha. Finally my day has come. Wanie's and Bee's days could be any. UNFAIR!

Bee's killing ppl in their slp. [Freddy Kreuger]
Wanie's the pscyho who goes ard killing for fun. [Scream] bwahahahah!!
she used to be so enthusiast about being hannibal. wad she doesnt noe is...
HANNIBAL SUCKS big time! bwahhaha!

okok. so next time beware of friday the 13th. cuz i'm somewhere out there, lurking behind ur CURTAINS! bwahahhah.

i shld team up with candyman.. rite, wanie? candyman candyman!

till then.. i'll see you peeps next year! FRIDAY THE 13TH.

bang bang bang POOF! -explodes!!!!!!!!-

2006-01-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

been shooting down some guards the whole day.

GAME of course. if i wasnt shooting some ghouls, i wuld still be glued to the id box.
nv liked playing ghostly-zombified-ghouls-shit-games. sheesh. and my heart dropped for like 2 secs when the zombie suddenly exploded. [yes exploded] out of the cupboard. FUCK BALLSSss!!!! gosh.

so den i muted the sound and continued playing. and was scared stiff again when i was "flaming" the weird bugs tht was on my way when i accidentally FLAMED a "slping" zombie lying on the ground. so "SHE" suddenly appear from the back and killed me. =.= after retryin the stg and failed miserably, i decided to off it and wait till either fri nite or sat for my bro to come back from bootcamp to shoot off those deadly creatures!

so. ok i'm hungry. gonna cook some instant noodles. ovua!

cook!

2006-01-10T03:10:00.000+08:00

i did some cooking today! i meant yesterday... yay-ness!

rain rain rain! another yay!

slp slp slp! another yay to tht!

okay. tht's all i've been doing for the day. ~~fun~~ isnt it?
-shucks-

back ache

2006-01-08T01:11:00.000+08:00

omg! back ache!

went jamming. today. i meant yesterday. or wadeva -.-

was late as USUAL.
sheesh. all left, leaving marilyn, wan and me there. -.-

they came up with some decent "riffing" tunes.and i tried to fit in the drum beats and make it as NICE as possible. overall.. it wasnt bad. not bad, not bad at all. ahahha

today is a whole lot of WALKING-TO-SAVE-ON-EZ-LINK and PLS-DRENCH-ME-IN-THE-RAIN day! so i guess tht's where the back ache came from. -.-

gotta slp early. waking up early tmr. i mean today. urgh! wadeva. -.-

ps: wanie wanna QUARREL ah!??!?!?!?!?!? hahhahahhaha

last day

2006-01-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

today was the last day of "lecture" or what-so you name it.

finally i made it for the morning lesson. yay-ness to me!
class wasnt much of a class itself. more like had our own little thing gg on. Padman was pissed off and yelled. "GET OUT NOW!"

i symphatise advert's lecturer.. wadeva his name was. he's like talking to the wall each time he starts class. i felt so rude. tsktsktsk.
played a short soccer. in class. damn i was panting for juz a short 5 to 10 mins game. must start on getting back my stamina. hehhehehe JO slamed me into the table. sheesh. SAME GRP!!! hahah
played poker cards. aloy with his erm. "after-that"s hahhaha! and more OC OC OC madness.

went to have dinner with nat and pam. the pornstar herself with a perveted sidekick, HIPPO. dumb hippo applied for mac's membership. hahha! save some moolahs! sat and crap for so eff long. were all stonedly-high! bwahhaah.

went toys"r"us. retardedly played the sk8board only to be noticed by the staff. oops??
nat had her fears over certain things. tsk her. pam was high like usual. haha! SELF-HIGH!
she's so efftard that she jumped over the metal "fencing" when she can exit normally. haha! tryin to be spider woman i guess.

wowwwwwwww. so long! hahhahhaah. lalalala [pam's trademark]

exams exams exams....

i miss my bimbotic conversations with my intellectual bimbo**

2006-01-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh. like finally i get to have like my beauty sleep? hah! that is like so fetch!! hahhaha.
[wanie this is like so so sooooooooooo dedicated to u, biatch!]
eeuwness. tt sounds like fuck lessy and WEIRD. like i really missed u..? as if! hahaha jokes.

not yet a perfect sleep. cant possibly be having one. since it's 1235 now.

***i dun get u. you self suffocating intolerable piece of shiznit crap. CLUCKING like a chicken on my last nerve!***

not yet the best day. with jnb worries effing attendance.

fuck balls! it's the last two days of lectures. how fast the time speeds thru.

-i miss my oh-so-fuck-balls family.................................sigh.
my life will nv be the picture-perfect-complete-puzzle like wad i had dreamt it wuld be one day. bcuz my worst fears have came true.

Dear Angel**

2006-01-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

Dear Angel,
OWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!! My chest hurts! SHIT! mo'fo piece of shit! shit! shit!

anyhoooooooooooooooooosss
new year's resolution is up!!!!!!!!!

1. MURDER THE PAST AND START AFRESH!
2. VANQUISH THE IMP AND TAKE OVER THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD!

er. no?

1. GET DISTINCTION FOR MY GRAD PROJ! [how bout tht?]
2. START A NEW LEASH OF LIFE! [no more hard misery shitty-fied crap!!]
woohooooooooos

ok. tht's about it for now.. i hope.
happy new year every1!

Goodnight Slp***

2005-12-31T06:22:00.000+08:00

ok. it's 624 am and i'm still awake. sheesh.
just heard Auburn's Epiphany [local band]. Addictive i'd say. I so hate addictive music becuz it makes you listen to it over and over again like there's nth better to do. hah! wad's the purpose of a song if it's not addictive.

ok this is plain retarded. i'm like literally talking to myself now. like a schizo.

better get some more of my thrilling slp b4 i go berserk and become a crackpot. hahah! oh wait am i already am?

another year, another misery, another heartsick, another nightmare, another uncomfortable silence.

****each and everytime u spend away from me... it's like eternity, eternity to me. So will you promise that you'll stay with me So happily in memory. ( Happily in memory ) *** Auburn's Epiphany - For You From Me.

*death sentence

2005-12-31T01:55:00.000+08:00

*death sentence!

projects are killing me. i have not had enough sleep. i'm gg braindead!

and i'm doin one now as "we" are speaking. [literally]

*no more happily ever after

2005-12-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

blablabla and it's already mon. dumbshits. how time passed so quick.

SAT:
went to catch a late night movie with a cousin. cineplex oso packed. blurdy fags.
watched The Family Stone. not a badddd show i guess. cant really rate it bcuz we missed out on like half an hr. my dearest cousin wanted to change her clothes so she had to drive back and blablabla half an hr show's gone! and the blurdy cheese spilled on me. -pouts-
went back to cos's place for a slpover.

the next day, we were laughin our arses off to the straits time "taking mandarin blabla" she spoke and sounded like some korean ass and me, luckily not. hahhhaa. den another dear cousin whom speaks mandarin was like, wad the hell are u guys crapping!? hahhaha. funny funny funny. seems like every1's in the holidays spirit maybe except for mum. sigh wonder wad eva happen to dad.... hmmmmmmmmmmmm.

went back home and mum was the pissy lady. yay-ness. got one blast of shoutin frm her. wad a way of welcomin back.

den blablablablabla it's already time for bed! hah! another week or few days for a brand new year. and a brand new, new year's [hmm wad's tt called. i forgot] sth like resolution? bwahah wadeva it is. tht thing has nv been accomplished or even tried out.

and lishan had to "msged me in msn" crushing my holiday mood talkin bout projects!!! u could have done it when the day is ending and when most people realise there's skool and work tmr den u say sth like tht. maybe tht could cheer the downcast up my dear B*******!! wahahhaaha.. jokes.

is this long or wad? well i guess. wadeva.

*assignment ache

2005-12-20T05:28:00.000+08:00

-ponders

i swear i dun get it. I'm up all night "doin" project. why do we insist on last minute work when u were given like a mth or two to work on it?
-shakes head

and i'm hungry! juz realised i didnt had my dinner nor supper. fuck.
have to wake up early tmr. hope i managed too.
-crosses fingers and toes